I'VE DONE IT!!! MARU YOUKAI SHALL GO DOWN IN HISTORY!

HAHAHAHA! I'VE DONE IT!! I'VE ACTUALLY DONEEEE IT!!!"
Remember backkk a while ago when I posted that "177 Really Random Ways To Die" list, and was trying to get it to 202?? WELL I'VE DONE IT!! And because I'm so kind and I'm sure your all so lazy, I'll just repost the entire thing here so you don't have to go searching for it.

202 RANDOM WAYS TO DIE!

1. Drowning in AFI songs
2. Being shot/stabbed/beaten while trying to hug Jade or Davey
3. Being shot down by police/crazy wild fans for kidnapping every AFI member
4. Being trampled at AFI concert.
5. Drowning in CDS
6. Laughing so hard you die
7. Choking on own saliver because you've laughed too hard
8. Killing Georgina/James Blunt and then drowning in his/her blood.
9. Having an aeroplane crash because you saw Jade on it, ran to hug him, tripped and bashed the pilot and co pilots heads together (so long as jade lives)
10. Going to an ultra rocking AFI concert and having your head explode because of all the smexy/awesomeness
11. Going to an ultra rocking concert and having your head explode because of all the smexy/awesomeness
12. Mailing yourself to AFI and then drowning in fan mail.
13. Mailing yourself to AFI and then getting thrown in the trashcan
14. Dying in your sleep after dreaming of AFI
15. Getting SHMACKED in the head after grabbing Daveys balls
16. Singing an ultra annoying song and getting squashed by a building which Ninja Jade cut down because the ultra annoying song woke him up.
17. Going to get food but being attacked by a gang of ninjas led by Jade
18. Be trampled by the screaming chicks as Ninja Jade plays his guitar on top of the building he cut down which squished some dude who sang an ultra annoying song.
19. Being asked by Jade if you want to fight him or make out with him, and choosing makeout.
20. Being hugged to death by Trunks
21. Being hugged to death by Jade or Davey
22. EATING THIS LIST *sharpens poison daggers*
23. Getting away with eating the RANDOM WAYS TO DIE list but choking because you saw Jade
24. Being tickled to death by Trunks
25. Farting so big it blows your arse off and wipes out half the nation
26. Choking on headphones
27. Trying to kiss a Jade poster but getting your lips stuck and having to saw them off and dying from loss of blood
28. Trying to kiss a Jade poster but it comes alive and bashes the shit out of you
29. Trying to kiss Jade...
30. Stealing Daveys makeup
31. Stealing Daveys pants
32. Stealing last slice of key lime pie while Daveys in the cafe
33. Having to watch Davey dance for two hours (back when he was a rapper)
34. Laughing so hard you die because you've just seen Davey dancing (back when he was a rapper)
35. Paying out AFI while Claire, Liz or Julia are around
36. Paying out AFI while Claire, Liz AND Julia are around
37. Laughing so hard you die because you've just seen Trunks dressed as a woman.
38. Being a peice of shit on the ground and getting stepped on by Jade
39. Being a peice of shit on the ground and getting stepped on by Jade who wipes his shoe on Daveys arse, who wipes his arse on Adams leg, who wipes his leg on Hunters arm who throws his jacket in the bin.
40. Stuffing your face with junk and eventually just going POP
41. Stuffing your face with junk and then seeing Jade or Davey and choking
42. Asking Davey why he is wearing makeup
43. Calling Davey gay to his face
44. Calling Davey gay to Jade
45. Calling Davey gay to Liz, Claire or Julia
46. Calling Davey gay to Liz, Claire AND Julia
47. Getting caught spying on Jade while his showering
48. Going to an AFI concert and having your head explode because this chick is screaming so loud
49. Going to an AFI concert and screaming so loud that chick next to you's head blows up and then being bashed by her boyfriend
50. Trying to stop Liz, Claire or Julia from going to a AFI concert
51. Trying to stop Liz, Claire AND Julia from going to a AFI concert
52. Trying to eat really, really fast so you can get back to your AFI music and choking
53. Borrowing $200 from a hitman so you could fly to Tasmania to see AFI seeing as they left Adelaide off the tour and not paying him back.
54. Having a joke and telling someone to jump off a cliff but they take it seriously and jump and then being hunted by all their friends.
55. Having a joke and telling Jade to jump off a cliff but he takes it seriously and jumps and then being hunted by Jade fans
56. Drinking coke and choking because you saw Jade in a towel.
57. Drinking coke and choking because you saw Jade in a towel and then being murdered because you coughed up coke all over the brand new keyboard.
58. Drinking coke and choking because you saw Jade in a towel and then being murdered because you coughed up coke all over the brand new keyboard and THEN having Jade come and kick you arse for staring at him in a towel.
59. Buying the last Decemberunderground CD and having Liz, Claire or Julia coming to buy the CD.
60. Telling the freaky dude that came up to you and said "I've spent the last five years in heaven trying to contact you and now you give me THIS bullshit??" that he needs a mint.
61. Eating three apples a day and then saying "No doctor will dare come near me" and then being stampeded by doctors who want to prove you wrong
62. Having your friend eat three apples and then saying "No doctor will dare come near me" and then coughing loudly as she gets bombarded by doctors.
63. Paying out THE MOOSE WITH A ROOM
64. Going to the Big Day Out and paying out AFI then being attacked by AFI fans
65. Going to the Big Day Out and telling a drunk you stole his belly fluff
66. Throwing eggs at random cars and hitting a limosuine and having this big buff guy come out.
67. Throwing eggs at random cars and hitting a limosuine and having AFI come out.
68. Grabbings Daveys balls while Liz, Claire or Julia are in the crowd
69. Being a bouncer at an AFI concert and punching some kid that got too close
70. Punching a bouncer that punched a kid and then telling all the kids to attack the bouncers and then being cornered in the changing rooms.
71. Walking into a shotgun convention and paying out shotguns
72. Walking into a ninja convention and paying out ninjas.
73. Telling a vampire he overdid his halloween costume.
74. Telling the tellietubbies they're evil and then being stabbed by the evil tellietubbies
75. Telling Elmo where you live
76. Having a blind man ask you where to go, then pointing and saying "Right over there" and then finding out it was a blind ninja as he kicks your arse with his numchucks.
77. Trying to pierce your tongue with a carrot
78. Being told you can't pierce your tongue because there's a vein in the way but trying anyway
79. Being told you can't pierce your tongue because there's a vein in the way but trying anyway with a carrot.
80. Trying to find out if you can get a brain piercing
81. Trying to convince Davey to pierce his tongue with a carrot
82. Telling Amanda that Trunks is gay
83. Telling Trunks that he is gay
84. Writing, saying or thinking "Claire loves James Blunt"
85. Falling into yesterday, then wondering how you could fall into yesterday and thinking about it so much your brain explodes
86. Going back in a time machine and landing on your mother, killing her, so that you were never born and thus aren't alive.
87. Thinking about going back in a time machine and landing on your mother, killing her, so that you were never born and thus aren't alive, and then wondering how that's possible and thinking about it so much your brain explodes.
88. Stealing Trunks' time machine
89. Stealing Trunks' time machine, going forward in time and being killed by androids.
90. Seeing your fish has died so sticking your head in the bowl to give it mouth to mouth but swallowing it instead.
91. Seeing your fish has died so sticking your head in the bowl to give it mouth to mouth but getting it stuck and drowning.
92. Seeing your fish has died so sticking your head in the bowl to give it mouth to mouth but getting it stuck and smashing it against the wall only to kill yourself.
93. Future Amanda finding out Trunks is in a different time zone and hunting down you because you stole the time machine.
94. Stealing Trunks' time machine and crushing Trunks with it... in front of Amanda
95. Being in a limosuine and sticking your finger up at everyone, then finding out the windows aren't actually tilted because this big bikie gang starts bashing you.
96. Paying out Davey because he pronounces ground grouwnd, and then getting five billion people smash your head into the grouwnd.
97. Paying out Punk Bob the Burnt Toast
98. Putting Davey, Jade, Adam, Hunter, Trunks, Punk Bob the Burnt Toast and Maru Youkai in a room and having a "Now let's pick out all your faults" session
99. Putting Davey, Jade, Adam, Hunter, Trunks, Punk Bob the Burnt Toast and Maru Youkai in a room and having a "Maybe you should all get councelling..." session
100. Hugging Trunks with Amanda watching
101. Deciding that you'd like to try everything on this list.
102. Reading this list and then asking Claire who AFI are
103. Stealing Liz's wig
104. Being stranded in a storm and running under a tree to call for help on your mobile.
105. Cutting Jades hair while his asleep.
106. Insisting over and over that AFI's "treasure hunt" is leading to their breakup
107. Challenging Maru to a spoon fight
108. Challenging Jade to a spoon fight
109. Standing behind Jade the horse after his eaten then drowning in his piss.
110. Paying out Jade the Ninja Chicken and then being clawed to death by Jade the Ninja Chicken and all his chicken followers
111. Calling Jade the Ninja Chicken a chicken and then being clawed to death by Jade the Ninja Chicken and all his chicken followers
112. Daring Maru to kill you
113. Daring Maru to kill Georgina and then being killed because you didn't bail Maru out of prison so she broke out.
114. Stealing Maru's poison daggers
115. Stealing Maru's baseball bat
116. Stealing Maru's shotgun
117. Stealing Maru's sling
118. Stealing Ninja Jade's numchucks
119. Telling God to smite you
120. Telling Maru to smite you
121. Making another damn icon implying that Davey and Jade are gay together
122. Stealing Liz's apple
123. Stealing Liz's frying pan
124. Stealing Liz's banana
125. Stealing Liz
126. Overusing the word "cheese".
127. Stealing Trunks
128. Having a water fight and putting down your water pistol while you go pee, then having a hitman come and swap your water pistol with a real gun to cover his tracks, then picking up the pistol and being an idiot by saying "Oh, I can't go on anymore!" *BANG*
129. Having a water fight and swapping your friends water pistol with a real gun, and then them being an idiot by saying "Oh, I can't go on anymore!" *BANG* and being haunted by their angry spirit
130. Standing in front of Liz when she has a cold and drowning in snot as she sneezes on you
131. Standing in front of Liz when she has a stomache bug and drowning in spew as she throws up on you
132. Trying to make a milo when your mums trying to put the shopping away, closing the fridge door to get to the cupboard and being murdered because your mum had an armful of things to go in the fridge
133. Trying to make a milo when your mums trying to put the shopping away, making sure the fridge door doesn't close to avoid being murdered, turning around and smashing into the freezer door.
134. Having your mum fall very sick and being asked to go to the doctors and get her prescribed medicine, but spending the money on the Decemberunderground cd instead.
135. Telling Claire she *wasted* all her money on a *stupid* AFI cd
136. Going up to Miss Callanan and saying "God is a sick, twisted and cruel bastard."
137. Spreading the rumour that the topic of beards is stale.
138. Saying "no one likes me" and then being stampeded by people who love you.
139. Poking a ninja and then being bombarded by ninjas who are all like "YOU POKED A FELLOW CIRCLE ARMY NINJA!!! ATTAAAAAAAAACK"
140. Commenting on how Jade is a girls name...
141. Sucking on an icey pole, seeing Davey walk by and choking... only to realise it wasn't Davey
142. Trying to divebomb a chicken but realising it's a ninja chicken and getting your arse kicked, Ninja Chicken Style!
143. Trying to dive down the plughole of your bathtub because your sister informed you that Trunks lives there
144. Being a slow arse when Maru is trying to get to the shelf you are standing in front of because there is a new AFI cd there.
145. Keeping Michael from coming online when Amanda is waiting *PATIENTLY* for him
146. Paying out Tosca
147. Saying Tosca is anything less then a punk rocking, circle going, ninja kitty!
148. Saving up a years worth of allowance and buying AFI tickets, waiting three months for them to finally come and then the night before the show getting grounded and throwing such a big hissy fit your head explodes.
149. Having your brain attacked by little mini ice cubes because you inhaled an ice block
150. Getting a can wedged into your brain because you decided to sniff Coke like all the cool kids do
151. Paying out pink pinkies and then being attacked by pink pinky worshipers.
152. Painting an apple purple with toxc paint to make it look cool. And then eating it.
153. Getting high, mistaking AFI for the Groovy Ghoulies and breaking Marks guitar as payback for not paying your friend who apparantly made flyers for them and then being beaten by Mark and the bouncers.
154. Trying to prevent Liz from drinking her coffee
155. Mixing the Dresdon Dolls with AFI. Then being murdered by Maru for insulting AFI with such bad backup band choice.
156. Putting "The Leaving Song Pt II" with a Nightmare Before Christmas. Then being squeezed to death by the much approving Maru.
157. Telling the purple bunnies they're leader looks like Madonna.
158. Going into a big convo with Claire and all her friends, then being bombarded by Claire's friends adding you until you drown in a sea of Claire's friends.
159. Showing Jade in a bath of black water with some guy hovering over it and then deciding to stop there.
160. Getting pissed off at your keyboard because you spilt coke on it and now it's screwed, throwing it out the window and hitting someone in the face, then having that person chase you with a pitchfork.
161. Paying out Tob Tob or Tobshca the Punk Kittys
162. A porridgy death... self explanatory
163. Coming to close to Claire when she's waving a baseball bat
164. Coming to close to Claire when she's waving firesticks
165. Coming to close to Claire...
166. Paying out Nick Carter when Jordan's around
167. Paying out the Backstreet Boys in general when Jordan's around
168. Not catching Maru when she tries to crowd surf.
169. Catching Davey a little too intimately when he tries to crowd surf.
170. Becoming a bouncer, going to an A.F.I concert and being bombarded by A.F.I fans
171. Paying out the Typo Chicks and drowning in typos.
172. Saying "Everyone loves me ^__^" and then being bombarded by people that hate you.
173. Exclaiming "Well trying never hurt anyone" and then trying to do the splits without stretching
174. Calling Punk Bob the Burnt Toast a poser
175. Calling Julia emo
176. Calling Jade emo
177. Calling Davey goth
178. Paying out Boris the Rock and then being crush by Boris the Rock
179. Trying to stop Maru Youkai from talking to her internet buddies.
180. Trying to stop Maru Youkai from listening to A.F.I
181. Deciding your tough enough to take on an emu and then realising your not as tough as you thought and getting your arse kicked, emu style!
182. Trying to stop Maru Youkai from getting 202 random ways to die on her random ways to die list.
183. Knowing A.F.I are coming to Australia, and knowing you can go, and being so excited you just... pop.
184. Knowing A.F.I are coming to Australia, and knowing you can go, and being so excited you just... pop. And then killing yourself for dying right when you were about to go to an A.F.I concert!
185. Exclaiming "I do anything you dare me to!" and having a not-so-friendly friend dare you to jump off a cliff.
186. Exclaiming "I do anything you dare me to!" and having a not-so-friendly friend dare you to hug Davey
187. Exclaiming "I do anything you dare me to!" and having a not-so-friendly friend dare you to disown A.F.I as your favourite band and killing yourself rather then doing what your not-so-friendly friend shamelessly dared you to do.
188. Trying to act like a chicken and deciding the best way to do this is sit with some chickens and getting your eyes scratched out by them
189. Trying to act like a chicken and deciding the best way to do this is lay an egg...
190. Trying to act like a chicken and becoming really good at it, so good at it that Jade the Ninja Chicken gets worried you'll try to take over and kills you.
191. Trying to view all Georgia's AMV's in one night because they are so awesomely rad, and then drowning in the awesomely rad AMV's
192. Trying to view all Georgia's AMV's in one night because they are so awesomely rad, just managing to finish them all and then Georgia says "Hey, guess what, I made more AMV's!!"
193. Putting Trunks and Michael on either side of a room and Amanda in the middle and saying "Choose."
194. Having a pillow fight and putting stones in your pillow case to better your chances of winning, killing the friend your pillow fighting with and getting haunted by there angry pillow weilding spirit.
195. Having a pillow fight and your friend putting stones in her pillow case to better her chances of winning.
196. Telling Maru Youkai that her random ways to die list is utter bullshit.
197. Watching Maru Youkai do the victory dance because she just got 202 random ways to die on her random ways to die list and then saying "Now go for 303", Maru's reply being "HOW ABOUT I CHOP YOU INTO 303 PIECES INSTEAD!!" and chopping you up into 303 pieces.
198. Watching Maru Youkai do the victory dance because she just got 202 random ways to die on her random ways to die list and then saying "Now go for 303" and Maru taking on the challenge and dying from the stress and then all Maru's fans hunting you down and chopping you up into 303 pieces.
199. Watching Maru Youkai do the victory dance because she just got 202 random ways to die on her random ways to die list and tripping her up. Then being cut into 303 pieces by an infuriated Maru Youkai.
200. Paying Maru Youkai out because she accidentally wrote "do" instead of "die" on the last three random ways to die and then being chopped into 303 pieces.
201. Absentmindedly dancing to invisible music in your head and being laughed at sooo badly you die of shame and embarassment
202. Exclaiming "I do anything you dare me to!" and having a not-so-friendly-friend dare you to attempt all the things on this list... twice.

And now to get it to 303!!
203. Getting a cold and thinking "Well, I have a blocked nose so now would be the best time to eat a sour lolly seeing as some percentage of taste is tasted through your nose" and then dying because you were sucking on a sour lolly with a blocked nose so you couldn't breathe.
204. Getting a cold and thinking "Well, I have a blocked nose so now would be the best time to eat a sour lolly seeing as some percentage of taste is tasted through your nose" and then dying from the super uber sour lolly.
205. Getting invisible ink and thinking "Now, I'm going to write 'Claire loves James Blunt' on this wall because Claire won't be able to see it so she won't be able to kill me!" and then having Claire realise you wrote "Claire loves James Blunt" because she's special like that.
206. Getting invisible ink and thinking "Now, I'm going to write 'Claire loves James Blunt' on this wall because Claire won't be able to see it so she won't be able to kill me!" and then realising, last second, that it's not invisible ink.
207. Getting invisible ink and thinking "Now, I'm going to write 'Claire loves James Blunt' on this wall because Claire won't be able to see it so she won't be able to kill me!" and then having Claire read your thoughts.
208. Getting an A.F.I tee for your birthday and having your head explode with excitement
209. Getting an A.F.I tee for your birthday but realising there's no way to actually GET the tee because of your overly protective parents who don't allow you to talk to "strangers" and having your head explode with frustration
210. Giving Maru Youkai an A.F.I tee for her birthday and being hugged to death
211. Calling Amanda weird for loving Trunks as much as she does
212. Calling Maru Youkai weird for loving A.F.I as much as she does

Lifetime To Do List

LIFETIME TO DO LIST:

Go to an A.F.I concert - Done.
Go crowd surfing.
Go to Texas.
Go to Figi
Taste Key Lime Pie
Speak Spanish - Halfway done
Publish a movie to youtube - Done 18 times and still counting
Own every A.F.I song - Done (minus a couple) and alas, lost almost all of them.
Dress in a chicken suit, kartwheel around mall with microphone singing the chicken song
Road trip with Julia
Own a shop with Liz called We Serve Soap - Scrapped due to lack of interest
Breed a sheep and a kangaroo - Scrapped due to stupidity
Go sky diving.
Dress in a green tutu with rainbow toe socks and thongs and my "we all need therapy" top with a fluro green afro wig and big novelty sunglasses and walk around the mall seeing how many randoms will give me a hug.
See Davey's abdomin tattoo - Scrapped due to invasion of privacy (unfortunately...)
Stand on the side of the road with a sign saying "Honk if you like icecream."
Stand on the side of the road with a sign saying "Honk if you're wearing socks."
Dress pineapples up and put on a play with them.
Dress up for halloween (even though we don't celebrate it), go trick or treating, play ding dong dash and toilet paper someones house.

Yep, that's my lifetime to do list. You might want to keep track of it because I'll be deleting the things I've done and adding new things.

Dun Dun Dunnnn

Why hello! Since I was already posting another song that I just finished, I decided I'd post those others that were ated by my butthole... computer. No swearing this time, Manda!

Song 1 (the song I started a long time ago and just finished now):
A Discreet Goodbye, A Stifled Cry And The End Of The World

When Death himself is singing of life,
We start to realise somethings not quite right,
We thought we knew, but were we wrong?
This truth could've been a lie all along.
And so the devil came to me and said,
"I do not know if you're alive or dead"
I fell into his arms, weeping bitter tears,
He only sighed and disappeared.

And when the fires of hell,
Burn a sweetly shade of blue,
We know the end is coming,
And there's nothing we can do.
There's nothing we can do.

The apples are rotting, take a bite,
Feel the blood run cold in the dead of the night,
You can leave your soul on the dusty road,
Feel your body lift from the lightened load.
And with smiles of fury and tears of joy,
We create a world that we only want to destroy,
And then we weep because it has died,
We try to swim against the tide.

And when the fires of hell,
Burn a sweetly shade of blue,
We know the end is coming,
And there's nothing we can do.
There's nothing we can do.

So sit and mourn in the dirty gutters,
Promise us life and then you cut us,
We sleep, we dream to escape reality,
But our nightmares echo our brutality.
And where do we go if whever we've been,
Disintegrates and remains unseen?
We're unwanted, broken, discarnate,
In hopes of a better world, we nourish our hate.

And when the fires of hell,
Burn a sweetly shade of blue,
We know the end is coming,
And there's nothing we can do.
There's nothing we can do.
The end is coming,
And there's nothing we can do.
May you burn peacefully.


Song 2:
One Final Wish

Promise me pain,
Promise me torture,
Promise me death and all this scary,
I never want to be,
Like the trash that I see.

I want this to hurt,
So I know I can stand the pain,
And so what if we don't wake up tomorrow?
Who would notice, who would care?
I'll have fun burning...
Burning in hell.

And would you miss me if I left?
Tell me you wouldn't realise,
I'll live off the lonelines.
'Cause I can handle myself,
And I want you to know,
But not to care.

Promise me pain,
Promise me torture,
Promise me death and all this scary,
I never want to be,
Like the trash that I see.

Because every time I cut myself,
The wounds get wider,
Soon I'll open up right in front of you,
But I'll be damned if you can see me,
I'll be invisible to you,
I'm better off alone.

So leave me there if I'm dying,
It'll be better for the both of us,
I'm sure I'll make it through,
And if I don't, would it matter?
I'm sure it'd mean nothing to you,
So let it go.

Promise me pain,
Promise me torture,
Promise me death and all this scary,
I never want to be,
Like the trash that I see.

I never wanted it to end like this.
Do you really think I knew?
I'd rather not go through this,
This is a last resort,
What happens if it falls through?
I don't want to admit it,
But I'm screaming it out loud.
I'm scared. I'm scared.
I'm scared to die,
But I don't want to live,
What other option do I have?
Float through life...

And hope to get hit by a bus.

So leave me there if I'm dying,
It'll be better for the both of us,
I'm sure I'll make it through,
And if I don't, does it matter?
I'm sure it'd mean nothing to you,
So let it go.

Promise me pain,
Promise me torture,
Promise me death and all this scary,
I never want to be,
Like the trash that I see.

Song 3:
Neverland

I am nothing, I am no one,
I don't want to evolve,
I just want to sit right back,
And watch the world as it changes,
As it leaves me behind,
I will wave, I will smile,
I will sit alone.
I'll be glad to watch it go,
And there it goes,
And here I am,
Where to, where to go next?

I don't want to be a part,
Of this God forsaken world,
Watch the train of life,
Fade from view

In a world without sleep,
I can only close my eyes,
But I can still dream,
This world is mine,
And mine to keep,
But I'll dream of those poor people,
Back on Earth,
May they burn easy,
May they die quick,
I wish this despite the misery,
They bestowed upon me.

I don't want to be a part,
Of this cracked and broken world,
Watch the train of life,
Fade from view.

I'll never have to eat again,
I'll fed off the peace and quiet,
Of being on my own,
With a deepened love,
For the bogus walls around me,
And the trees and rivers,
Only I can see,
They're made just for me and I,
I will take good care of them.
The closest thing to civilisation,
The only population that I need.

I don't want to be a part,
Of this cracked and broken world,
Of this God forsaken world,
Of this lost and lonely world.
I don't want to be a part,
Of this world,
Watch the train of life,
Fade from view

Nowww with One Final Wish, that whispered bit, it's really really super uber fast, alright? So that you can hardly hear it *nod*

FARKING MENTAL THING!!!

ARRRRGH!!
I just wrote this hugeee post, with two songs, a rant..ish thing, and a dream that I had last night... and it took ages... and my friggin craparse computer just ate it all!! GAHHHHH

So now you get to listen to me yell at my computer, because I'll be damned if I can be fucked typing all that up again!

Fucking stupid good for nothing useless piece of crap computer! FRIGGIN BUTTHOLE!!! Would you like me to spell that out for you so you can download it into your system and then loose the file it's saved on because of your stupid pathetic buttholeyness? D=
P.S. If you want those songs, I've saved them and can send them to you, but I'm afraid the dreams lost forever.
P.S.S You don't want the rant. It's just me complaining about being sick and no one caring XP
Except Liz.

Serial Killer Survay

Do you know who these serial killers are?
A) Jack the ripper: Oh, he’s my idol
B) Albert Fish: I fried him up and ate him.
C) Charles Manson: No, but he sounds hot can you hook me up with him?

Do you like reading or watching shows about serial killers (If yes please state why):
Yes. BLOOD GUTS MASS MURDER WEEEEE YAYYYY how very yummy.

Do you think people are influenced by violent video games or crime shows so much they think they can get away with a murder?
If your implying that I killed that bitch georgina because I saw how to do it on law and order then SHUT UP I come up with my own ideas thank you VERY much!

Why do you think they do it?
Because georgina is a bitch

Have you heard of serial killers who get love letters when they’re in jail?
Ahh yes. I remember all the letters I got. How sweet they were. I met my boyfriend through anonymous love letters… unfortunately, I had to kill him. He go too clingy and I just got bored of him so yeah

Why do some people copy serial killers? [Aka Copycats.]
I never do. I come up with my own ideas and YOU CAN STOP IMPLYING THAT I DON’T. other people just cant think for themselves. Tut tut

Do you think Jack the ripper murders were mostly done by copycats?
Oh, those stupid pathetic mindless arseholes who cant think for themselves. STOP STEALING JACKS WORK HE IS A TRUE INSPIRING ARTIST AND YOUR JUST RUINING ITTTTT

Do the media help the serial killers get attention? (If yes do you think that’s what they want?)
Oh HEY were you watching the news last night? They were doing an article about those five schoolgirls I killed, and I licked blood off my lip RIGHT in front of the camera, and those dumb fucks don’t even know it was me yet!!

How do you think serial killers should be punished?
One night alone in a room with just me and them…

Should they be sentenced to death for their crimes? An eye for an eye so to speak
Like I said… let me at them.

How are serial killers different from normal killers?
Normal killers are spineless. Ohhhh look at me I kill once and then run back to my hidey hole! SERIAL KILLERS KICK ASS

Why are people interested in crime shows and murders?
… BLOODDDDD GUTSS YUMMYY

Are serial killers smarter or have higher IQ then normal killers?
Yessss, and they are braver and better and positively perfect in every way.

Do you think children who were abused or harmed animals have a higher chance of being serial killers when they are older?
Your just saying this to try and make me cry by looking back onto my horrible horrible childhood. Well fuck that! I just kill my family and make a bridge out of their bones.

Why was it so hard to catch serial killers in the past?
Cops were fuckwits then and there fuckwits now

Do you think it’s easier to catch them now? (If so, why?)
See above.

Do serial killers interest you?
Yes

Anything else to add?
SERIAL KILLERS TO RULE THE EARTH! ONE STEP OUT OF LINE AND WE KILL YOU AND YOUR MOTHERFUCKING FAMILY!

My morning (lies over the ocean XP)

I thought my wonderful readers and those rather sweet stalkers would want to know what I did this morning, and (for the stalkers) you didn't see me out of my room until my mum came and told me to get up for lunch.

Welll I was having a dream. A weird dream O.o. Buttt it's not that interesting so I won't post it (and I can't remember bits of it) Anyway that was interrupted by my sister and my mother screaming at each other and waking me up. But I didn't wanna get up =( so I went back to sleep. Another dream. More screaming. Slipped in and out of conciousness while my mother and my sister went at each other like dog and cat. Actually it's more just like two viscous dogs. Why insult the cats?
Anywaaaaay they finally stopped. Well more appropriately my sister had to go to work. But I was angry at the cruel way of being woken up so I refused to actually get up. And for about an hour I just lay in bed. Ahhh, how sweet was that. Yummy. But then I had to pee >=(. So I got up, and then I got myself a milo, and then went back to bed with my yummy yummy milo. Yummy. Again. And so I was sitting there with nothing but my red light to break the darkness, my music on, a bag of lollies, my milo and two good books. Ohhhhhh the saweetness! ^__^ And I stayed that way, totally loving every second, from 10:00 to 1:40ish. Then my mum came in and said lunch was ready (and that I couldn't read in that light, but that's not important). So I officially woke up to pizza and a skating competition on tv. Then that finished and I got myself another milo and watched the next show, some skit show. Then that one finished and I came on the computer (now 2:30) ready to help my Becca stay up all night. Buttt she wasn't on ='( And still isn't. But Bonnie Taylor Shakedown was =D. Sooo I made up:
"My Becca lies over the ocean, my Becca lies over the sea, and right now, at 2 pm, I wonder why can't she come talk to me?"
And that's my day up til now.
S'now 2:58.

Song of the day! YAY

Dun dun dunnnn. Here I introduce Hellogoodbye to my blog for teh first time! Goooood band, is Hellogoodbye. *Petty petty HB*
Okie dokie, this is a bit of a sop song, but it sent me to sleep last night and helped me up this morning. And it's stuck in my head. And I love it.

"Bonnie Taylor Shakedown"

Visit you at Baskin Robins all the time
To let you know that I am yours and you are mine
So we can take long walks through central park
And hold each others hands to fight the dark

So you know that you're never on your own
So you know that you're never on your own

My Bonnie lies over the ocean
My Bonnie lies over the sea
And every night at 2 AM
I wonder why can't she lie next to me.

Remember all the time you let me walk you to class
And you would kiss my cheek,
I'd never have to ask
You're going away in late September
But here's a thanks for a summer I'll always remember.

So you know that you're never on your own
So you know that you're never on your own

My Bonnie lies over the ocean
My Bonnie lies over the sea
And every night at 2 AM
I wonder why can't she lie next to me

I hope you listen to me every night before you go to sleep
And know that someone in HB is thinking of you, Bonnie

[x3]
My Bonnie lies over the ocean
My Bonnie lies over the sea
And every night at 2 AM
I wonder why can't she lie next to me

Heartness

Enjoy.

1.
I've got a secret. I never once stopped dreaming of you. But now I lock these thoughts inside a beating box inside my chest. There used to be a heart there. That heart now belongs to you. Only you didn't want it. You threw it on the ground. It hurt. I tried to wash the dirt away but the water froze it. It's useless now. It's a frozen, cracked and dusty heart. But it's still yours. It was a gift... keep it.

2.
I've got a secret. I never once stopped dreaming of you. But now I lock these thoughts inside a beating box inside my chest. There used to be a heart there. That heart now belongs to you. Only you didn't want it. You threw it on the ground. It hurt. It cracked in two, so I stitched it up. But the stitches are made of barbed wire, and they sting. They make it bleed. When I tried to wash the blood away, the water froze my heart. It's useless now, but at least it doesn't bleed any more.

Ramblings Of A Demon Mind Part 7 and 8

Part 7: Inflatable alien

In todays rant, I believe I shall be comparing myself to an inflatable toy. May you enjoy my misery.

Okay, so with an inflatable toy... When blown up, they can be incredibly wild and fun. You pull them out, you have a bitching time, you get tired nd go do something else. Life goes on. But, almost everytime you let this toy of yours go, you leave behind a tiny hole where the air seeps out. Eventually, the inflatable toy deflates completely, or near completely. Then when you come along totally bored and looking for a quick fix, the toy is deflated, utterly depressed and useless. So you leave it.

Let's run over the facts here... You recieve the toy. You love the toy. You ditch the toy. You let out all the air in the toy. You complain because the toy has no air. You leave the toy, when all it needed was someone that could blow it up.

So, is tht all I am to you? An inflatable toy... an infalatable pushover... and inflatable alien.


P.S. I used the word TOY every five seconds for a reason.



Part 8: Crash and Burn
Those who bleed live longer then those who smile, because although each drop leads us closer to death, we know what pain feels like, and we can embrace it. But those who smile know nothing about pain, and will someday crash. But they can't handle the burn like we can.

Royal Fuck

Wee a song! SCREAMO STYLE! Wooty wooty wooty

A pain that cuts so deep,
A pain that soaks up life,
A pain that lies within me,
A pain you shall never know.

Have you ever cried so much
You felt your throat bleed?
Your eyes could hold no more tears,
So you wept silently.
They think you lying,
Don't care to look deeper,
Your soul withering away,
Along with your love, your hope,
Your entire life.
But do they feel for you?
Do they even notice?
They say they love you,
Will always be there,
But they don't fucking know you.

Wasting away, the prime of your life,
Why should you give yourself up
To the likes of, to the likes of them?

They don't even know,
Your smile from your frown,
And your dying... dying inside,
But who can tell?
Who will come to save you?
Your on your own,
It's what you get
For sticking around,
Putting your life out,
Giving all that you've got,
And more,
To keep them fucking happy,
Well are you happy now?
Look what you've done.

Wasting away, the prime of your life,
Why should you give yourself up,
To the likes of, to the likes of them?

They know nothing of pain,
They think they've got it tough,
And when you just want,
To take your life,
They think your insane,
They want to bring you down,
But you're already at rock bottom,
So where do you go from there?
Where can you go?
Fucking maggots, watch them crawl,
Sucking the juice, the light,
From your eyes,
Until there's nothing left,
But a broken body.

Wasting away, the prime of your life,
Why should you give yourself up,
To the likes of, to the likes of them?

Bleeding away,
Watch me fade from sight,
My wrists paint a portrait,
Of your black heart,
Well are you happy now?
Are you fucking proud?
I may be the artist,
But you're my inspiration,
So inspire me.
Make me bleed one more time,
May you enjoy the show,
It'll be my last,
A private screening,
For your royal fucking highness.

Now, with the start... it's sort of whispering in screamo form, and it gets louder with every line. Yes... I think that's all. *nodicles*

Yay! Another dream! Wooty wooty wooty

Hmm okay... Well I was a babysitter, and I went to the house that I was working at... But I was a witch, and no one knew. And the parents were talking to me but I wasn't listening at all. The kids I was meant to be baby sitting were twins, a boy and a girl, around 2 years old. And the parents were like "Could you leave our broom alone? Last time it was left out and the dog chewed it, and it's our good broom." But they didn't have a dog. Aaand I'd been using the broom to fly on. O.o And then they were like "Kay, let's get to work." and they started sweeping the backyard with their "good broom", and there was all this junk, like broken toys and shit, just outside their shed, that I was supposed to help clean up afore they left. So I went to help, but then I couldn't be stuffed and just shoved things with my foot while the parents did most of the work. Then I saw a pen lying in the midst of it all and I'm like "Dude! Saweet!" so I picked it up and put it in my pocket. The parents left, even though there was still a whole heap of the mess around the garage, and I had to bath the chick, but the other twin was nowhere to be seen. So I beant down to the chick (I couldn't even remember her name) and said "How about a treat tonight? How about you have a hot bath?" and she was all like... "But... me get in when bath cold, right? Me always have cold bathy." and I'm like... woah poor child. And then the dream flashed to the other twin (the male) playing with a dollhouse. But it like... came round the side of the house and then in through the window and right into the dollhouse. Then I grabbed my bag and walked out, and suddenly I was waiting at this park with my class and we were going on a school excursion, and I forgot my bag somewhere three times, and the third time it was on the bus and the only other person who forgot their bag was Georgina. So we both went to get our bags, and I ran back to sit with Jordie. Then we were in a truck and it was driving down onto the beach, and my stomache sort of turned and I'm like "We're not going in.. the water.. are we?" and everyone in the truck just laughed and said "Well that's only the whole part of the excursion!" and I'm like "But... what about sharks?" and they all just laughed again. So we're all walking along the beach, and I'm trying to keep as far away from the water as possible, and it's just like that scene from Jaws, where there all in the water and that kid gets eated by the shark, except it's spread over the whole beach. And we're just about under the jetty, when this gigantic wave comes, not from the sea, but right in front of us, and I just scream, but then it's gone and everyones looking and me and laughing, and I'm like "Whatttt? It was a big wave!! D=" and they all just roll their eyes and giggle and then we're walking again, and we come to the place where we're meant to be swimming, and it's under a jetty except the jettys going the wrong way along the beach so's that there's this big patch of dark shadowy water, and then out past the shadows is mirky, grey water, so that you can't see anything. And the instructor dude swims out and is all like "Right, you gotta swim to me and then back" and he's out pretty far, and there all saying I have to go first, and I see something in the water and scream "Fin! There's a fin out there!!!" and it turned out to only be someone surfing, but no one got scared anyway. Then we were all backed up against the wooden railing that seperates the beach from the road, but I was the only one that was actually scared, and everyone else just couldn't be stuffed going. Then finally one chick was like "Fine I'll do it." and there all like "Yeah! Go Duffeild!!" and she went to swim out and there was an actual fin and I'm screeching "FIN!! THERE'S A FINNNN" and she's like "AHHHH" and ran out of the water but the instructor dude's just like "Go away" and these kids come out of the water with these fake fins on their back and we're all just like -__- and that's where it ended.

Dreams! MORE DREAMS! *runs around like a crazy bitch*

Hmm. I appear to have water on the brain. Well, at least I did last night.

Dream 1:
I was in a trailer, right, with Miss Polec (My old drama teacher. She left last year.) and these other people that I don't remember, and we were looking out the window, and they were like filming a Home and Away episode, except there was no camera or crewmen, so it was like a play, but it was meant to be an oldddd episode of H&A, and Mr Tailor (scary teacher from my school. Suspected rapist) was playing a part, and I'm like O.o wtf..? but it didn't exactly sink in. And then Miss Polec goes "That sounds like..." and I yell out "MR. TAILOR!!!" and I'm freaking out. Then he comes into the trailer and it's like we're part of the show, and I'm a daughter and he's in love with Miss Polec. I believe Miss Polecs name was Sarah. Here it gets blurry... (man was I drunk?) Buttt the next thing I remember (and, yes, it's still the same dream) is I'm out in the backroom on a mattress in a sleeping bag, and I'm playing playstation, except the tv is smaller and it's against the wrong wall, and it's not standing on a cupboard like it does in real life. Then people are walking in and out of the room... my brother and my mother I think. Something happens but I can't remember. Then it goes back to the beach (sorry, I forgot to mention the trailer was on a beach) and there's this thing... like a desk that the contestants of a gameshow sit behind. And Mr Tailor's trying to get us to sit behind there, me and Miss Polec and that Elle chick from neighbours. But he looks really different. And he picks me up in his arms (EEK! HELPPP) and is carrying me there, and then somehow he kills Elle without touching her, and we're like "Ha! Now your in trouble! Didn't mean to do that, did ja?" and he says something scary like... "Who cares? With you two gone, no ones gonna notice." an he gets me to the desk thing that Miss Polec is already stuck behind, and we're freaking out, and he positions himself in between us and starts telling us his "plan", but we're not listening. It's getting darker and the tide comes in, and the body of Elle is meant to be lying on the beach, but she gets taken by the tide and sinks (dear god, my mind was really graphic about this image. She had her eyes open! Scary shit!!) and we're like "Ha! That wasn't meant to happen, your plans falling through!) and he's like swearing but then he's like "No matter, she was a very small part in our plan." and then we're moving into the water, and the desk turns into a floaty thing, and we're meant to be pushing it in and out of the water so we're swimming, but I don't get it and for a while I'm just being repetatively dunked. Then I get that we're meant to be moving forward (I thought we were meant to be hovering there, in hiding) and the waves begin to get bigger. Not monster, just big, and there are people coming, and everytime we come to a group of people we have to tread water, and the floaty thingy becomes a drum kit and I have to keep it up by hooking my toes under the cymbol. Then after a while (even if the people didn't move) we'd continue swimming, and it turns out Mr Tailor was meant to be kidnapping us and taking us to like New Zealand or something, and we were meant to swim there. Anyway, Miss Polec's freaking out about it, I'm all cool, yeah we're getting kidnapped, whatever, when's tea? Then we've gotten out like really really deep, can barely see land and shit, and I start getting really really freaked out about sharks, and there waters too dark to even see our feet, and I keep thinking I see shadows. Suddenly Mr Tailors turned into Stefen (jerk from my school) so I say something like "Sam (sometimes-alright-but-mostly-just-wanna-kill-him jerk from my school) can't play touch footy now." and Stefens like "OMG POOR SAMMY!" so we swim back and the dream ends O.o

Dream 2:

We're on a boat right, me and all these randoms, and it's like a cruise thing. Anyway, I get to go swimming on the back of a dolphin, and I'm like "What if there's sharks or something" and there like "Don't worry, there's a ladder that's always in the water in case you need to climb out, and if it's something really dangerous we've got a bell that we'll use to sound the alarm. We can even wind up the windows if it's really bothering you." And the dude demonstrates by ringing the bell really really loudly, and we all run inside because he just sounded the alarm, and there are windows that don't wind down at all with electric windy-uppy windows in front of them, so he presses a button and the electric windows come up and this giant octopus comes out of nowhere and bangs against the windows and shakes the boat around a bit, then disappears back into the water and we all come out again. So I'm like, "Cool, sounds good to me." and I get into the water onto the dolphin. Anyway, I've been riding around a bit and the people are just like yeah whatever, and this massive great white shark comes up and starts attacking the dolphin, and the dolphin fights back with me still atop it, and I'm like "AWH SHIT!!!!!!!!!" and I jump off onto the ladder and the dude sounds the alarm and we run into the cabin and wind the electric windows up, leaving the dolphin to get thrashed by the shark (aren't we so kind?). The boat speeds away and we come into port and blah di blah. So we're walking along the shops that come off from the harbour and suddenly we're like "Wtf? This has all changed! How can it though, we were only gone for like 20 minutes!!" and the shops are all completely bare and marshmellow pink (O.O! That's my nightmare right there) and so we're walking through these shops like "wtf!!" and then suddenly I've wandered away from my group. I'm pretty sure I meet someone really really strange there, like a fortune teller or something, but that's all that I remember.

Man... I think this might be telling me I have a fear of sharks! XP. Oh, and I've had other dreams like it! Actually, I've had a lot of dreams about me almost getting eated by sharks, but here's the most recent one (which was still a while ago so I can't remember much)

Dream 3:
I'm at the beach... and I'm on this deck thing, looking down into the water (there's a walkway next to me leading down there) and longing to go in, but mums like, "You shouldn't go in there, Claire, there's been too many warnings about sharks!!" and I'm like "Nonsense! There's no sharks in there! Look..." and I chuck my drink bottle in, and the second it hits the water there's a massive cyclone of bubbles and this bloodthirsty shark (it was actually quite small, but dear god it could've ripped me in half in a second if I'd jumped) tears it to pieces. Mums just like "told ya so" and walks off, and I'm standing there in complete shock. I had almost jumped into that water! So I'm walking around this deck, pale as anything and almost crying, and I keep bumping into people that I know that all wanna stop and chat, but I'm going crazy knowing if I had jumped in I would be dead right now, and I just don't want to talk to these people, so I'm running away and I'm in tears, and I go down to like this path right up against the water, and I'm standing there looking down on this monster shark (not the shark that ate my drink bottle) swimming around in circles, just waiting for some nice juicy humans to be foolish enough to jump in, and I'm feeling sick and just thinking... oh my God...
This was actually a really long dream, I just can't remember a lot of it, and I described it shortedly (like with the people and stuff)

Well, I remembered it, so why not?
Dream 4:
(I dreamt this the same night I dreamt Dream 3)
I'm swimming in the ocean, and I'm freaking out because there'd been all these shark warnings on tv, and then I see this fin come out of the water near this group of people, so I'm screaming, and they look at me, and one of them gets attacked by the shark, and there not far away from me so me and all the other people in the water are swimming for there lives, and we reach the shore but the tides like chasing us in, and we're scrambling up the rocks and onto the footpath, and the tide stops at the rocks and the sharks still swimming about and there's blood in the water.

Great, huh?

Just ignore this post

I don't like my subconciousness...

Waaaaaa!! *hides under blanket* I just remembered a really, really, really super ultra bad dream I had like last week. By far the saddest/scariest/worst dream I've ever had. And I'd almost wiped it from my memory T_T

Well, I was in my house, but it wasn't my house, it was big... really big. Except it was one storey and had some similarities. And my mum was cooking dinner in the kitchen... chopping up vegetables with a butcher knife O.o. And I walk into a room, and it has no furniture, and there's two people in there who are friends of mine (although I realised when I woke up that I didn't recognise either of them) and ones possessed, and they're screaming... nay, shrieking and thrashing about. The other one is performing an exorsism as calmly as if it was all in good fun. Then it starts to get chaotic and the second person (the one who's not possessed) has to hold down the second oneand I rush in to help and we're screaming the exorsism frantically. This is all happening in flashes. And then the second one is possessed as well (I'm no longer in the room) and their both bouncing off the walls, eyes yellow, shrieking like demons. Then it's only the second one, still possessed, alone in the room. It then flashes back to my mother chopping up vegetables with the butcher knife. I'm now running outside, running from the possessed people in the empty room (apparantly the first one's come back again) and the backyard in my dream is, unlike the house, exactly the same as my backyard in real life. So I run and hide behind the shed, totally freaking t as the dream flashes from the room (with the people inside it) to my mother chopping vegetables and back again, faster and faster. Suddenly the shed I'm hiding behind has changed and I'm in my old backyard, but I'm still in the same place with the possessed people inside. I disappear for a second down the side of the shed and come back with this massive pitch fork, made entirely out of wood that's almost twice the size of me. It holds some strange, supernatural power, and just by holding it I can suddenly sense an evil presence, right there, just behind me, and I'm stepping out past my old tree and trampoline, heart poudning, spinning to find this evil presence that's haunting me. All happening in flashes again. Then I hear something and spin, and Tosca comes slinking out from the bushes, but her eyes are yellow slits and my heart sinks as I realise she's possessed. I feel sick in the stomache and the two people in the empty room begin to flash through the dream. Then Tosca's advancing on me, and I'm thrusting the pitchfork towards her and drawing her back, but I won't, I can't bring myself to touch her. But something happens, she steps forward and just as I bring the pitchfork out the world spins, and she's closer, and my pitchfork doesn't go where I want it to, and I've stabbed her, straight through the neck. I scream and wrench it out, but there's holes in her neck and she's no longer possessed. I'm crying, screaming, hugging her fading body, but she doesn't die. She lies there, weakened and in pain. She's dying, but she doesn't die.

Suddenly it's a couple of days later, I'm at Georgia's house, except it's not Georgia's house, it's bigger again and they have an actual built in pool outside. And I'm not with Georgia, I'm with Jordan, Georgia's not even there. And we're changing to go in the pool, but I'm feeling sick and can't stop thinking about Tosca. I sit on the bed and stare, face pale, into space. Jordan comes and sits down next to me, and we're talking, and suddenly I'm sobbing and blubbering "I killed Tosca! I killed her!!" and at first Jordan's at least half sympathetic, but then she's all like "Well, at least now you can get a dog! I mean, I know cats are great and everthing, but c'mon, you gotta admit that dogs just rock!" and shit like that, and I'm giving her this completely mortified look, mouth open, cheeks stained with tears and I'm feeling sicker then ever. Then I'm yelling at her and suddenly the house is full of people, and they're having a party, and they're all in the pool and crowding the hallway, and Gergia's in the doorway all cheerful and telling us to come in the water, and Jordan and I aren't talking to each other, trying not to look at or touch each other while shoving our way through the crowd. Georgia notices the tension between me and Jordan and starts giving me shit like "You can't be mad each other already! Surely she can't have done anything that bad!" but it was hapy, kind hearted shit. The dream ended there.

Odd Facts: Jordan was the only person who knew about Tosca.
The dream didn't actually show me Tosca when she was dead.
Tosca never bled.
About the crowd in Georgia's house. I never once saw a single face. It was either the back of a head or a blur.
I can't ramember whether the two people in the empty room were male or female. This may just be bad memory but I have a strog feeling they were sexless.

Ramblings Of A Demon Mind Part 6

What if "forever" had an end? What if, at the beginning of time (or the beginning of forever, whichever came first) people foresaw a time slot so magnificent that it's end would cause the destruction of the earth, the solar system, the entire universe? And what happens if forever ends? Would we just cease to exist? Like when we sleep, it's not black, it's just nothingness.
Now that I think of it, what if "time" and "forever" are the same things? Which is why they say the end of time is the end of everything.
"Life is forever" Well that's right, because life will exist forever, forever meaning until time ends.

So next time you're singing along to "Forever Young", stop and think what that would mean. Afterall, you'd be kicking yourself if suddenly you couldn't die until time itself stops (and the universe blows up from the pressure).

Special thank to Davey and those of A.F.I for the song "Midight Sun" which caused this train of thoughts.

Ramblings Of A Demon Mind Part 5

Dearest Mother,
Can I just ask you one thing? If I slit my wrists right now, what would be the first thing that comes to your mind? And I mean the very first thing, even if it's only for a split second. I bet I could tell you. "Oh my God! Howe can she do this to me when the insepction's on Wednesday?!" Or maybe "How am I meant to clean all this up? I just wish someone would stop and think about me!" Or even "What's she got to be depressed about? I should be the one down there, but would I do that? Nooo." And what about if I survived? What would you say when I woke up? "I love you Claire, don't ever do that to me again!" Or "I'm so sorry, darling! I'm glad you're awake! You had me scared!" Or how about a simple "Welcome back, sweetheart"? Ha! I don't think so. More like "Claire! Don't ever do that to me again, I was so embarrased! Fancy having to tell your teachers that you won't be coming in because you tried to kill yourself! Your making me look like a bad mother!" Why don't you just go back to your old ways and try to beat the crap out of me? Afraid I'll turn out like Amelia? Bitch, I'll turn out so much worse! I'm a goth, remember? Goths are harder to handle then skanks. So you'll have a druggie who's 22 and still lives with you, a slutty hoe who'snever home, and when she is starts screaming matches and tries to hit you, and a depressed goth who slits her wrists. My, my, haven't you done well?