Saturday, September 29, 2007

Amv's! Yay!

Um so.. I dedicated mostly all of my amvs to someoneee, so I thought I'd make a list of who I've dedicated to just so I can keep track and so everyone else can too XD Not that anyone reads my blog but whatever. So!

Dedications:

Georgia
Julia
Michael
Liz and Simon
Georgia and Jordan
Manda
Georgia... again (Remind me not to dedicate any more amvs to Georgia..)

And I'm pretty sure that's it =) Bec, you're coming soon, I promise! It's just those fucking clips ><

Blaqk Sanctuary

I can't believe I haven't ranted about Blaqk Audio yet. Somebody slap me!! Agh okay, get comfortable.

WELL. First of all, I decided Blaqk Audio is like ice 'cause it is deathly addictive and! it makes you feel like you have bugs crawling under your skin. Okay, after that last comment I think I have some explaining to do.
Okay, so I was all stressed out and bummed and so I went into my room and put on Blaqk Audio to calm me down (worked like a charm), and I lay down and closed my eyes and just listened to it, and I started to feel like there were bugs crawling under and over my skin, to the point of I had to sit up and rub furiously at my arms to make it go away. So now I don't lay down when I listen to Blaqk Audio XD I know what happened though. It gave me huge massive goosebumps and even when there was no more room left on my arms I kept getting goosebumps popping up everywhere. That's how frickin amazing Blaqk Audio is. So yes, Blaqk Audio is like ice, except for the obvious fact that ice is fucking BAD BEYOND BADDDDD and Blaqk Audio is... woah... Just woah. There are no words awesome enough to explain Blaqk Audio to you! *Sigh of amazement* I connect more to Blaqk Audio more than I connect to AFI almost o.o It's scary. I guess Blaqk Audio is almosttttt AFI XD It's like half of AFI muahaha. Anyway, on with the second part of the rant!

I have to do things while I'm listening to Blaqk Audio... like I normally put it on when I'm sticking posters on my wall or cleaning up my room. 'Cause if I don't itttt sends me into like a really deep.. something... o.o Like with the whole goosebumps thing.. it's just like... woahhhhh o___o. I'm tripping out mannnnn... Look at the psychadelic colours! Raaaaadical. Haha XD Sorry... but I'm scared I'm gonna listen to it when I'm in a seriously bad mood and it'll just be like... ahhhhhhhh I can't even explain it. You just have to experience to know what it's like. Ummies, I listened to it before I went to sleep right, and I stayed awake until the cd finished and then I just like... died XD I went into the deepest deepest sleep I've basically ever been in. Hmm yes well that's all from meeee see you later =)

A random poem..type thing....

Uhm... This just sorta came to me and I couldn't be bothered finishing it because it's kind of shit XD It doesn't have a title so.. here it is:

I feel insane today
Tomorrow I'll be happy and then
I'll go back to being sad

Until I change again
Which won't be long because
This world is driving me mad

Don't fear me,
I'm just a reflection of
Your own soul

I'm like a mirror
That takes away your mask and barriers
Exposing you to troubles all

And yuh that's it XD *Runs away*

Friday, September 28, 2007

The two words I hate most in the whole entire world...

... Are "emo" and "faggot". I find them really truely offensive, as in you have no idea how insulting they are to me. I would never, ever EVER use them against someone if it could save my life, and if you use them against me, I hate you forever. FOREVER. You'll find I am excellent at holding a grudge.

I just felt like sharing this piece of priceless information

The A to Z of Claire's mind

A is for annihilation, don't you dare mess with me
B is for being the only one with individuality
C is for the cockheads who try to bring me down
D is for daring to ignore them; daring to stand my ground
E is for emotion, exhaustion and eternity
F is for a fate that nobody can foresee
G is for giving up and learning to pretend
H is for hurting, then healing and hurting again
I is for being insane, ignored and interru-
J is for the daydreams where I jump in front of trucks
K is for a killing spree, times up for a certain slut
L is for laughing so as not to cause a scene
M is for mortality, memories and morphine
N is for nothing, there's no hope for this old bird
O is for oesophagus just 'cause that's a cool word
P is for the parents who don't know their own daughter
Q is for the quebranto that I'll be feeling ever after
R is for the regret that will stay until I'm gone and dead
S is for the screaming voices, lingering inside my head
T is for the thoughts that I never wanted to own
U is for understanding that I'll always be alone
V is for a victory that will never come my way
W is for watching, waiting, wasting away
X is for xenophobia, another illness reeking of my insanity
Y is for the yesterdays' wasted and yearning to be free
Z is for zero confidence, one of my main qualities

Thursday, September 27, 2007

Ohhh yeaaah

Hey George... hollah if you ever stumble across this post! XDD

School holidays! FUCK YEAH!

I was going to post photos from FLASHBACK THURSDAY! here, but apparantly the internet hates me so... maybe some other day =)

Edit: Ahh.. I've noticed that in my previous post I promise I'd write something more interesting, and that this is not at all interesting. For that, I sincerely apologise.

P.S. On second thought, I can't be bothered posting pictures of flashback thursday. Sorry

Sunday, September 23, 2007

Yay, Kurt Cobain!

So, it's my birthday soon. Seven days to be exact. Doesn't feel like it... I'm more excited about dressing up as Kurt Cobain for Flashback Thursday this week. And then I'm house sitting for one of mum's friends who's going to Japan. She lives up in the hills and she has two little dogs, so that's going to be awesome. And then there's the youth impact thing which I talked mum into letting me do as a birthday thing, but from the looks of it no ones going so I'll be a loner for it. Always fun. And then in November there's the Muse concert, and in December the My Chem concert. And I'm going shopping today for a digital camera (birthday present)

In summary, there's a lot of things I'm excited about right now. My birthday isn't really one of them.

Holy crap my moods changed again. I TOLD you I was having really bizarre mood swings. Anyway... I'm off for now. I feel like eating

Edit: Sorry, this was a pretty random and pointless post. I promise next time it'll be more productive =)

Two more things that I am sick to death of

1. I'm so damn sick of people telling me that I'm only doing something because of someone else. Okay, let me explain. (This was a while ago but it's STILL eating me, and people are still doing it) Okay, I was with my friend and a couple of her other friends, and we were having a conversation that went something like this:

Julia's friend Matt: Why are there x's on your hands?
Me: It means straightedge
Matt: What's straightedge?
Me: You don't smoke, you don't drink and you don't take drugs
Matt: *Mock look of horror, starts backing away*
*Everyone laughs*
Julia: She's only straightedge because AFI are.

*Takes a moment to scream into my pillow* Agh! No!
Okay, first of all, not ALL of AFI are straightedge. Only Jade and Davey are. If you're going to insult me, at least get it right. Technically it would've been better if you'd said "She's only straightedge because Blaqk Audio are" Although that would've been equally us untrue.
Secondly! No, I'm not straightedge just because AFI are. I know most people in this world are just clones of each other and have to have every thought exactly synchronised so there are no seperate opinions, but I AM NOT ONE OF THEM. I am a NORMAL person, and I can think for myself! I'm not straightedge or vegetarian because some people in AFI are, I do not want to play bass just because Hunter does and most of all, I don't do ANYTHING to try to be "emo" I hate the word emo and anyone who uses it against someone!!! Fucking FUCK OFF.
And I am incredibly hurt that Julia, who knows how much I hate the fucking sluts who just do something because someone else does, would suggest that I am like that, and that I would become some fucking sheep like that. >< AGH!

2. I'm tired of feeling like there's something wrong with me, like I have some psychological disorder. Like I frickin belong in an asylum for crying out loud. I'm tired of being so damn paranoid, I'm tired of hearing voices in my head, I'm tired of not sleeping and I'm tired of all these fucking mood swings.
I'm also tired of feeling like I'm stupid and not being able to do the things I used to (like maths and crap)

... That's all from me =) Hope you enjoyed my misery

Friday, September 14, 2007

Walt Disney

Now... something you should know about me is that I'm absolutely crazy about Disney movies. Yeah, that's right... Disney XD Wouldn't have guessed it from my previous post, eh? So, since I had nothing better to do, I had a Disney movie marathon! Yay! Different sized fonts are fun.
I watchededed: The Lion King, 101 Dalmations, The Aristocats, The Jungle Book and Babe.
I also watched Once Upon A Forest and was planning to watch Fern Gully but never got around to it... although they're not Disney so poo on them.

I tried to make a list of top five Disney movies, but I could only decide on the first two. So!

Top TWO Disney movies!

1. The Lion King
2. Fox and the Hound

Lion King is love. Love I tell you!!

The Wasteland

Hmmm so. I've been sick for a while. Two weeks to be exact. It's really not fun. I had to head-to-head migraines, and then I got the flu really badly and couldn't talk or swallow or breathe so yes... that was great. But I'm feeling.. ever so slightly better now =) I managed to crawl from the couch to the computer! Hooray!

It's always nice to know that the only person that truely missed me (besides Liz... Liz is awesome) is my science/maths teacher... whom I hate with a burning passion... =/ *Sigh* That's life for ya. Can't say I was expecting better... but still...

So here's the latest on how I am lately (emotional wise.. y'all just heard me ranting about my sickness) Wel... School is incredibly incredibly crappy and is making me and every else all.. blegh and stressed out. All my internet buddies are depressed and spend their time moaning about how crappy their ex boyfriends are and how men suck and they hate their lives and whatnot, except for Liz... Liz you're just plain awesome v_v I'm sorry for being all pooey on you.
And I haven't spoken to Matt in 2+ weeks which is really eating me. That's about it =)

Now, if anyone has been trying to ring my phone for whatever reason... I don't maybe a prank call or something... I've temporarily loaned it to my brother because the radio in his van is broken, so I don't expect to see that again... ever. Edit: Never mind, I have it back!

P.S. If you're wondering about the title (The Wasteland), I'm talking about my head =)

Wednesday, September 05, 2007

This is the story of a girl

Her pretty face she hid from the world!

Well, actually this is a story about Blaqk Audio (kinda), in all the different languages of the world!
XD Okay so, just because I'm lame and I really love different languages and crap, I took my two favourite Blaqk Audio and translated them into French (for Lizkins) and Spanish (for moi!.. Err I mean para mi =D)

First one:
Wake Up, Open The Door And Escape To The Sea, in English.

Please catch me now, I'm lying.
You taught me how it can feel like love.
Just catch your breath.
We'll dive in and our dissent will somehow feel like life.
Oh, my, my, you're oh so sly.
Let's leave unsaid what's left unspoken.
Please hold me now, I'm freezing.
God tell me how we ever got this cold.
Oh, my, my, you're oh so sly.
Let's leave unsaid what's left unspoken and oh, my boy, you're so so coy let's just pretend that nothing's broken.
We'll censor the ending for me...for you.

And in Spanish:

Ahora cogerme por favor, yo están mintiendo.
Me enseñaste cómo puede sentirse como amor.
Retén justo tu respiración.
Nos zambulliremos adentro y nuestra disensión se sentirá de alguna manera como vida.
Oh, mi, mi, eres oh tan sly.
Vayámosnos unsaid se deja qué unspoken.
Ahora sostenerme por favor, yo están congelando.
El dios me dice cómo conseguimos siempre este frío.
Oh, mi, mi, eres oh tan sly.
Vayámosnos unsaid se deja qué unspoken y el oh, mi muchacho, tú está tan así que tímido dejarnos apenas fingen que nada rota.
Censuraremos el conclusión para mí… para ti.

And in French:

Veuillez m'attraper maintenant, je me trouve.
Vous m'avez enseigné comment elle peut se sentir comme l'amour.
Crochet juste votre souffle.
Nous plongerons dedans et notre dissidence se sentira de façon ou d'autre comme la vie.
Ah, mon, mon, vous êtes l'OH si astucieux.
Laissons inexprimé ce qui est laissé unspoken.
Veuillez me tenir maintenant, je gèle.
Dieu me disent que nous avons jamais obtenu ce froid.
Ah, mon, mon, vous êtes l'OH si astucieux.
Laissons inexprimé ce qui est laissé unspoken et l'OH, mon garçon, vous sont ainsi si effarouché feignons juste que rien cassé.
Nous censurerons la fin pour moi… pour toi.


Now, the second song
Snuff on Digital, in English:

Cutting through just like champagne petals sprinkled over the blackest sea urban stars will shine, electric, they keep on calling.
As they beckon I'm enamored of the sight.
No, everything won't be alright for me tomorrow.
Tomorrow may not come.
Ascending slowly with hopes of finding one small moment of clarity I escape the blackness cast upon me.
I still cant see as you bind me, murder me from miles away.
I will finish this today for you.
Tomorrow means nothing.

Immobile lights will fly tonight.
We'll watch them pass together as we part the rising sky.
I won't die without you.
These breathtaking heights lend sparkling sights but we won't fall forever.
Tightly bound we'll chase the ground.
I won't die without you.

Descending quickly with hopes of sharing all the things you've shared with me, I'll chase the digital eyes below me.
Through them you'll see as I fall with digital omniscient eyes capturing me one last time for you.
Tomorrow you will see.

This is a breakthrough. Oh, forget me not.
This is my breakthrough. Oh, forget me not.
When you see me soaring and the lights are screaming, you'll forget me not.

And in Spanish...

Cortar a través justo como los pétalos del champán asperjados sobre las estrellas urbanas del mar más negro brillará, eléctrico, ellos guarda en llamar.
Como me hacen señas se enamoran de la vista.
No, todo no estará bien para mí mañana.
La mañana puede no venir.
Ascensión lentamente con esperanzas de encontrar un momento pequeño de la claridad escapo el grado de oscuridad echado sobre mí.
Todavía no puedo ver como me atas, me asesino de millas lejos.
Acabaré esto hoy para ti.
No significa mañana nada.

Las luces inmóviles volarán esta noche.
Las miraremos pasar juntos mientras que pieza el cielo de levantamiento.
No moriré sin ti.
Estas alturas impresionantes prestan vistas chispeantes pero no nos caeremos por siempre.
Limitado firmemente perseguiremos la tierra, yo no moriremos sin ti.

El descender rápidamente con esperanzas de compartir todas las cosas que has compartido con mí, yo perseguirá el ojo digital debajo de mí.
A través de ellas verás como me caigo con los ojos omniscientes digitales que me capturan una vez última para ti.
Verás mañana.

Esto es una brecha. El Oh, se olvida de mí no.
Ésta es mi brecha. El Oh, se olvida de mí no.
Cuando ves que yo altísimo y las luces están gritando, te olvidarás de mí no.

And in French ...

La coupure à travers de juste comme des pétales de champagne arrosés au-dessus de la mer la plus noire urbaine tient le premier rôle brillera, électrique, ils continuent à appeler.
Comme ils me montrent du doigt suis enamourés de la vue.
Le non, tout ne sera pas bien pour moi demain.
Le demain peut ne pas venir.
Monter lentement avec des espoirs de trouver un petit moment de clarté j'échappe à la noirceur moulée sur moi.
Je ne peux pas encore voir pendant que vous me liez, m'assassine des milles de distance.
Je finirai ceci aujourd'hui pour toi.
Ne signifie demain rien.

Les lumières immobiles voleront ce soir.
Nous les observerons passer ensemble pendant que nous pièce le ciel se levant.
Je ne mourrai pas sans toi.
Ces tailles stupéfiantes prêtent des vues de scintillement mais nous ne tomberons pas pour toujours.
Étroitement lié nous chasserons la terre, je ne mourrons pas sans toi.

La descente rapidement avec des espoirs de partager toutes choses que vous avez partagées avec moi, je chassera l'oeil numérique au-dessous de moi.
Par elles vous verrez comme je tombe avec les yeux omniscients numériques me capturant l'une fois passée pour toi.
Demain vous verrez.

C'est une percée. Ah, m'oublient pas.
C'est ma percée. Ah, m'oublient pas.
Quand vous voyez que moi montant et les lumières crient, vous m'oublierez pas.

*Fewww* Geeze, that was hard. I'mma print out the Spanish and English version of Wake Up ...etc and put it on my diary!! =D
And also stick it on my wall XDD
Yay for Spanish!

...*leaves*