Me *nods*

WHAT ELEMENTAL ANGEL ARE YOU?(NOW WITH BEAUTIFUL ANIME PICS)(EXTREMELY DETAILED ANSWERS)

You're a night angel. Although you're dark that doesn't mean your evil, you're just lost. Your probably very protective of yourself. You're misunderstood and your friends mean a lot to you. You see the world in a different way; as in the people on this planet are destroying it.You probably love looking at the sky, stars, and clouds because you know that humans can't touch them, unlike trees that are cut down constantly by humans the clouds cannot be reached so they cannot be destroyed. You're in one with nature and with yourself. You might even think there are two souls sharing your body. You're often confused but you would give your life for those you love without a second thought. You probably feel lost in the dark and long for light. You long for a relationship in which your partner loves you, holds you, and never lets you go. Someone who whispers soft enchantments in your ear. Keep looking and stay true to yourself and one day you will be holding your love in your arms forever under the night sky with you both wrapped around your glisining black wings. COLOR: Black, Dark purple, Dark blue QUOTE: "THERE'S SOMETHING INSIDE ME THAT PULLS BENEATH THE SURFACE, CONSUMING, CONFUSING. THIS LACK OF SELF-CONTROL I FEAR IS NEVER-ENDING. IT'S HAUNTING, HOW I CAN'T SEEM, TO FIND MYSELF AGAIN, MY WALLS ARE CLOSING IN."
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Jade *nods*

*wipes tears*

I'm sorry... I don't likeeee posting this shit on blogs and stuff but... everyones so sad and so far I've been sooking to Manda but I don't wanna swamp her... And people need to LEARN!

*bangs head on table* I HATE PEOPLE!!
For Gods sake, DON'T pay out A.F.I to get a reaction from me! Especially if your gonna have a cry and yell at me when I hurt you!! YOU HAD IT COMING AND YOU KNEW I'D DO IT! You might not be obsessed with a band like I am with A.F.I, you might think they are "just a band" but it hurts me more then you think. So stop doing it! Even if it's as mild as "A.F.I suck" So you might think it, but I don't care! I like them so fuck off!
I'm sorry, but seriously! Look what you've brought me to! SO JUST FUCKING STOP IT!!

There's another reason I had to make a post like this. Right now, I am so damn close to crying, my stomache is sick, I had shivers up my spine and I was shaking. GO here RIGHT NOW! RIGHT NOW! I know it's long but seriously, read it, and take notice! If you are a person who has ever called a band a "sellout" or went to a concert just to pay out and abuse the band that played, I hope this puts something HEAVY on your conscience and may you learn never to do it again! And if you EVER treat my precious A.F.I like that, blood WILL be shed!!

P.S. People suck.
P.S.S In case you didn't get the message, SHUT THE FUCK UP ABOUT A.F.I!!!!!!!

RANDOM LYRICS!!

Yay! I just love this song XP it's hilarious

You've got something to say, or so you say to me, then you receive a blank stare.
You've got something to say of importance and gosh, that's really good to hear.
I'm proud of you, so proud of you, I'm proud of you, I'm very proud of you.
I'm proud of you, so proud of you, I'm proud of you, I'm very proud of you.
You've got some S.P. Something to show to me. Well, I have seen it before.
I can't compete, I can't impress you. I guess I'll show you the door.
I'm proud of you, so proud of you, I'm proud of you, I'm very proud of you.
I'm proud of you, so proud of you, I'm proud of you, I'm very proud of you.
I'm proud of you, so proud of you, I'm proud of you, I'm very proud of you.
I'm proud of you, so proud of you, I'm proud of you, I'm very proud of you.

Consult my lover by A.F.I

*Atreyu spasms*

I want these tops!! Unfortunately I
couldn't find any
bigger images of
them... V_V
*huggles*




















SMEXY GUITAR! *huggles it and steals it*

Maru Youkai's second RPA!

It's that time again! Yes, that's right...
It's the second official...

RANDOM PICTURE AWARD!!

This time the award goes to...

SMITH AND JADEY!! For you stupid stupid people JADE is the guitarist of A.F.I (Jeeebus don't chu know that by now?!) and for you less stupid people Smith is his brother. Buahaha I love this pic! You can't really see it but Smith is holding a knife XP. So it's like Smith: I'M GONNA KILL YOU MOTHERFUCKER! Jade: Woah watch out his got a knife! Yourrrr in trouuuuubleeee

Rahness?? WEEEE

Yay! Maru Youkai decides to write another blog post.
How do you gauge loneliness?
Buahaha I'm being naughtyyy I'm talking to FORBIDDEN PEOPLE! Dun dun dunnnn and Manda's on! She hasn't been on in AGES and Liz let me lick her wig! And Matty's on too! And Smosh is on but he's not answering me =(
So how was my day? TERRIBLE! First day back at school and people suck XP. Buttt I got to kick Georgina in the stomache! And call her a fucking bitch and throw a musli bar at her. What? She started it... I just finished it.
But I'm happy now thanks to my wonderful wonderful Forbidden People (don't cha just love that name?! XP Sounds like something out of some horror film or mystical book or something) and my gorgeous gorgeous music. (Oh, you can put down the pitch forks and shotguns, Smoshy is speaking =D)

Current obsessions:
A.F.I (always my number 1 priority)
ATREYU AND AVENGED SEVENFOLD *huggles*
Trapt! Buahahaha
Okay, the song Kiss and Control is STILL HAUNTING ME but I love it. Oh! And Last Caress now *nods* Davey raped my mother... OMFG buahahaha pretend you didn't hear that XP *falls over* omg the people must all be scared... LMFAO oh god... I suppose that was not entirely necessary. Perhaps I should clear this all up? Maybe sometime if your lucky XP

Song! Song! Those two songs ARE spinning round and round my head but guess which ones in the middle?
You Give Love A Bad Name- Atreyu
Bon Jovi cover! (Atreyu does it better... sorry Manda... who's lefted me anyway D=)

Shot through the heart and you're to blame
Darlin' you give love, a bad name

Fuck you

An angel's smile is what you sell
you promise me heaven, then put me through hell
Chains of love, got a hold on me
when passion's a prison, you can't break free

Whoa!
You're a loaded gun
yeah, whoa...
There's nowhere to run
No one can save me
The damage is done

Shot through the heart
and you're to blame
You give love a bad name (bad name)
I play my part and you play your games
You give love a bad name (bad name)
You give love a bad name

You paint that smile on your lips
blood red nails on your fingertips
A school boy's dream, you act so shy
Your very first kiss was your first kiss goodbye

Whoa!
You're a loaded gun
whoa...
There's nowhere to run
No one can save me
The damage is done

Shot through the heart
and you're to blame
You give love a bad name (bad name)
I play my part and you play your games
You give love a bad name (bad name)
You give love...

Shot through the heart
and you're to blame
Darlin you give love a bad name
I play my part and you play your game
You give love a bad name

Shot through the heart
and you're to blame
You give love a bad name (bad name)
I play my part and you play your games
You give love a bad name

Shot through the heart
and you're to blame
You give love a bad name
I play my part and you play your games
You give love a bad name

Currently listening to ACDC O.o

This song is scary... another quiz stolen from Liz! (Baha, that rhymed!)

--FIRSTS--
:-: first best friend = Lucy Rogers O.o
:-: first job = N/A Although I did work in the tuck shop at henley oval
:-: first screen name = O.o jeebus like I'd remember that
:-: first self purchased cd = oh god knows..
:-: first funeral = Some family member I can't remember
:-: first piercing/tattoo = Ears
:-: first enemy = umm prolly Lucy Rogers XP
:-: first big trip = uh Sydney I think... or up to the farm... or other farm... or shack... one of the four
--LASTS--
:-: last big car ride = bah ages ago -_- i want to GO somewhere!
:-: last good cry = ehhh you know? i cant remember. Prolly when mum BURNT MY SKULL with the straightner *rubs head* it still hurts ='(
:-: last library book checked out = um the 2nd and 3rd of um Alanna the Lioness andd So Much to Tell You i think thats it
:-: last beverage drank = *chuckles at beverage* um tea =)
:-: last food consumed = *laughs at consumed* um i believe twas a honey sandwhich
:-: last phone call = uh prolly to julia
:-: last time showered = *sniffs* oooo PEEYEW *dies from intoxication*
:-: last shoes worn = *cries over green fluffy boots* um most likely my sandshoes... maybe my boot boots
:-: last cd played = Decemberunderground
:-: last annoyance = Um prolly my mother
:-: last shirt worn = well im wearing my pyjama top now.. but before this was my paul frank top (hand-me-down... fits perfectly though)
:-: last website visited = blogger.com
--DESCRIBE YOUR...--
:-: wallet = black and pink
:-: underwear = who says im wearing any? >=P
:-: tattoos = N/A... unfortunately
:-: hair = icky
:-: eyes = perdy
:-: hands = small
:-: feet = smexy XP
:-: room = surprisingly neat O.o
:-: Boyfriend = non-existent
:-: parents = bah
--THIS OR THAT--
:-: [boxers or briefs] = Boxers
:-: [plaid or striped] = striped
:-: [salt or pepper] = salt
:-: [okay, ok, or o.k.] = ok
:-: [bright colors or dark colors] = black & lime green
-: [tic-tacs or certs] = tic tacs
:-: [sunshine or rain] = rain. Sunshowers are cool though
:-: [rain or snow] = snow
:-: [sun or moon] = moon
:-: [silver or gold] = silver
:-: [silk, cotton, or flannel sheets] = silk
:-: [preps or freaks] = freaks
:-: [popcorn-with or w/out butter] = w
:-: [ketchup, mayo, mustard, or relish] = mayo
:-: [shampoo + conditioner in one or separate] = seperate
--IF YOU WERE_______, WHAT WOULD YOU BE?--
:-: an animal = a butterfly
:-: a fruit = lemon
:-: a vegetable = carrot
:-: a color = green
:-: a bug = mozzie
--SHORT ANSWER--:-:
are you smart? = nope
:-: do you like onions? = nope
:-: what instruments can you play? = guitar.. very badly
:-: what words do you overuse? = too many to write
:-: do you sleep with socks on? = sometimes
:-: are you ticklish? = all over
:-: are you shy? = sometimes
:-: do you talk to yourself? = constantly
:-: do you have a basement or an attic? = neither
:-: did you go to preschool? = yeah.. damn i miss preschool! =(
:-: are you a morning person? = HELL NO AHH THE LIGHT IT BURNS IT BURNNNNNNNNSSSSSSSS
--FRIENDS--
:-: who you are closest to = internet: Liz bec and manda Rl: julia and georgia
:-: who makes you laugh the most = internet: uh prolly liz or matty rl: julia
:-: who is the most trustworthy = internet: you know? every one of them rl: uhh julia and georgia XP
:-: who has the best house = internet: no idea rl: Uh um... tough one. Prolly Alex
:-: who is the most daring = me!
:-: who cares more about their hair then anything else = rl: jordie ohh and alex. And georgia sometimes internet: um lara... according to liz
:-: who is most likely to become an actress = internet: lara according to liz rl: jordie
:-: who makes you cry the most = internet: all of them cuz i cant talk to them any more =( rl: prolly jordie
:-: who is the craziest = internet: liz! WOO and manda rl: there all pretty sane actually. Damn them! Oh, prolly maddy
:-: who is the most flirty = internet: um no one. Oh, maybe alec, but shes mostly just being a retard XP rl: jordie or ally
:-: who is most likely not going to call = POO someone farted >=( internet: all of them. I was call them! Well, I call matty. rl: Uhm maddy
--RIGHT NOW--
Wearing: different pyjamas then the ones i was wearing to when i started this about two and a half hours ago (i had a bath)
Hair: guhh -_- just recently straightened
Makeup: N/A i never wear any
Jewelry: nope
Eating/Drinking: nope
Last phone call: this has already been?
In your cd player: ... what cd player? Current song is THE LEAVING SONG PART II <3
Desktop picture: Pssht a stupid island my sister yelled at me for having afi on it >=|
Last watched on tv: ohhh god *cries* it takes two... guy was up and I hate him to begin with but then he sang a BRITTANY SPEARS song *sobs and hides under the desk*
Last website visited: Also been?
Plans for today: sleep, eat, sleep, talk to forbidden people
Last thing bought: Crash Twinsanity and Devil May Cry *huggles dmc*
Listening to: Tulips are better just finished and now its do dos and woah ohs (not the best song, mind you...)
Last showered: also been?!
Went to bed/woke up: Um last night... i think it mightve been 12... woke up at 10 to 11. You know i really cant remember what time i went to bed last night... i wonder if thats bad..
need: afi
Looking forward to: afi
Worst part of the day: waking up
Best part of the day: sleeping
Favorite person of the day: liz and manda (come online, bitch!)
Thinking about: absolutely nothing
Current annoyance: everything
Current obsessions: afi

Muahahaha...

Hello my wonderful, wonderful fanatics. Your marvellous Mistress of Shadow has a cunning plan.
Unfortunately, this plan needs to be put into action, and until it has been completed you will know nothing of it.
It started out as a simple rant, which suddenly got me thinking, and now I have turned it into a project. I will no doubt be hated for it, unless nobody sensitive reads it... buahahaha >=D

Actually I meant to post this yesterday when I thought it up but, alas, Maru Youkai is a lazy bum.

Tosca darling buffy girl ^_^

I just thought I'd ramble again about how gorgeous my precious kitty is. When me and my sister were playing cards, she came into the room, and for about ten minutes all me and my sister did was yell, "Come here darling! Come sit on my lap! Come here darling girl!" and she just sat there loving all the attention, and after a while walked out of the room and we continued playing, and she must've gotten bored because she came back and purposly walked right in front of us, wagging her tail under our noses. We just thought, "Aww, that's gorgeous!" and continued playing, and she got annoyed, turned around and did it again. So we fought over her again, and again she didn't sit on anyone, although, just to tease me, she sat in front of my knee, so I was patting it and calling her, and she smiled all ^_^ and went as if to sit on my lap, but instead she jumped over it and walked egotistically out of the room, all "Damn, I'm good."

Maru Youkai had another dream... O.O

A few actually... but before we start...
Time: 12:00 pm
Things I've done today: Woken up ("Ahh the light! Bugger off! It's Sunday and I'm SLEEPING!!") had breakfast ("Mmm, pancakes...") played Speed with my sister, played Pairs with my sister, got on the computer.
Time check: 12:02 pm.
Overall: Well, wasn't that interesting?

Right. On with the dreams! Now remember, the old grey mare she aint what she used to be, aint what she used to be, aint what she used to be! In other words, I have a very bad memory. Live with it.

Dream #1: I was at school... (*scream of horror*) and we were on the playground, my class was, it was part of our sport lesson I think... and everyone had a station, and we'd have to move around to other stations... and I was always the leader of Follow The Leader to begin with... and Georgia and Alex were being positively horrible to me... although I can't remember what they were saying, all I wanted to do was die. And then once they'd bugger off I'd go to Julia and she'd make things better... and it kept repeating itself except different things happened each time, but every time I started out as the leader of Follow The Leader, Georgia and Alex were being horrible and I'd always go to Julia for comfort. Then my sort of dream loop finished... and it ended with the program on the playground finishing and my class (actually it was more the whole unit) walking in towards the building, and I was almost crying and I was going to go to Julia but she was with her friends, and then Jordan appeared out of nowhere and I just hugged her, and I think Julia saw me and started walking over. O.o my subconcious scares me... I think it was telling me I'm dreading going back to school, but there are some things I'm looking forward to. But it's got a funny way of showing it. Georgia if you read this, I'm sorry I can't control my dreams, but I know you'd never be like that, you are an angel.
Alex won't be reading this, but same goes for you too Ally. Angel =3

Dream #2: I was... a ballet dancer O_O. Well I'd signed up for ballet lessons, and it was my first lesson, but it was like at a Rove Live concert, almost. There was a live audience there... but it was more like the audience you'd get for a Jerry Springer show. They were restless and chanting and just being general jerks. And then there was a bit of stage, but it was all carpet, except for this tiny strip in front of my sisters cupboard, which was just randomly in my dream. And first there were a lot of girls there, but it showed a shot of the audience and then went back to the stage, and it was just me and one other girl, and the teacher just said, "Glide." and left. So I had to teach myself how to get up on my toes and glide across the stage. Only I stuck to the strip of floor in front of the cupboard because it was too hard on the carpet. And the other girl was prolly around 14 or 15 and all she did was eat. She'd get out these bizarre looking meals and pig herself out, and yet she was skinny as a stick. And then Rove was there, doing his show, but it didn't look like Rove, it looked more like the guy who pretends to be Rove in Comedy Inc. and they brought out this meal thing, and it was served in a shoe, an everyone was cheering. And then it was just me practicing (I'd almost got it!) and the other chick eating for a while, and I thought, "No one likes me here... I should bring Julia! I go along to her cirkidz and keep her company and make her look better by being a retard, and she can do the same for me with ballet!" Then Rove brought out another meal in another shoe and threw it in this big tank of water, and the words "What The...?" came up like they do on the actual Rove Live show, and Rove yells out, "What the!" and the crowd goes wild... and that's where it ended...

Dream #3: We were in the car in one of those drive-in things, and my sisters boyfriend was serving, and then my old babysitter (who we often see because she works in Video Ezy... she's a love XP) was standing a few metres back look very rejected and giving Tom daggers. I'm like, "Oi, Tom." and I was gonna ask him to snag me a lollipop for free but then I thought, "Nah, better not..." so I asked my mum for one and then suddenly my old babysitter (fuck! I've forgotten her name! Jeebus, I feel so cruel D=) was up with Tom and they were both handelling the change and we were all getting a bit mixed up because they were both trying to do the same things at once. That's where the dream ended.

Dream #4: This sort of follows on from dream 2. I was with my mum and my sister, and they'd just picked me up from ballet lessons (and that's where these dreams are linked...) and I was still in my ballet clothes, with those shoes they make you wear and a blue jacket over the pink leotard, and we were queing in a shop with an armful of just food and shit and I hear this cat meowing, and I look around but I can't see anything but a dog. Then the dogs owner leaves and the cats still meowing and I'm thinking, "If the dogs gone, why is the cat still meowing?" so I just walk away from my mum and sister and go out the store and round the side of it into an alley-type thing, and there's this gorgeous long haired black cat with matted fur lying down on the ground, to weak to even get up, and there's another cat in the trash can, who was prolly a brother of the one on the floor, and he was dead... and I felt sick and was practically choking on my tears, though I wasn't crying yet, and I bent down and held my hand out to the cat, who weakly sniffed it and then started licking it, and my stomache felt like it was eating itself, I felt so sick, and I started crying like all hell and ran back into the shop, and then the female cat was there behind me and I'm begging mum to let me take it home and look after her, just until she got better and then we could sell her to a nice home, but mums refusing and I'm crying so much, and then we're at home and I've locked myself in my room and Tosca starts hissing and the cats there, and Toscas getting all stressed out and I'm trying to calm her down, and then I'm alone with the cat, and then the cats gone...

I'm still crying from the last dream...

What else does Maru Youkai do at 2 am?

I study angels!! I found a really interesting thread on gaia, here's what I posted (beware... it's LONG!!):
Wow, this thread is really interesting! I love the ideas of some of the stuff I've heard. Time for my input
Note: I haven't read all of this thread, I'm too damned lazy, so sorry if I touch on something that's been said. And the information I'm submitting is based on very little fact and is mostly opionated, so if it contradicts some religious beliefs, I'm sorry again.

This is what I believe
I believe in angels. I believe there are different types of angels, and I do think guardian angels are a possibility. Given my beliefs in God (don't ask...) it's hard to link angels with Him, but I do believe they are for the "greater good". With guardian angels, the idea of every being having a source of some kind to watch over them is, for me, easily believable. Although it could just be some story created to bring comfort to children, that somewhere along the way got mixed up with the truth, like (and yet unlike) Santa Claus and the Easter Bunny. If there are guardian angels, I believe they are limited to how they can protect you, eg. if you walk onto the road and a bus is coming, they can't push you out of the way of the bus, but they could send a feeling (like how you just get those gut feelings) that there is danger, so you could turn around, see the bus and push yourself out of the way. With me so far? Now, everything has a logical explanation in this world, it's the way things are, so what's the deal with this "feeling" your guardian angel sends you? I've thought about this, and, based on a theory I found floating around here somewhere, I believe it comes from an electrical current. The theory I found goes something like this... (keep in mind I have a really bad memory, so if I get it slightly wrong, bear with me)
Every human being has an electrical current inside of us. Basically, we couldn't survive without us. It is like our individual scents; unique for every one of us. When we die, this electrical current leaves our body (so, this current could well be a soul or a spirit). The theory I read (and this is where I begin to forget...) said that this current takes a different form, and we are reincarneted into that form. Well, I was thinking maybe this current could transfer into a spirit or (if this current is a spirit) some other form of something that once existed, but now does not. So, something or someone that has died. (Just some branching thoughts, this current could reincarnate us, become our guardian angel, or take the form as a spirit or ghost. I know a bit more about spirits... apparantly, if they died unexpectantly or before their time, they wander the earth to try and fill the time they lost, but they often need help to do this, and when they have they go on to the "next life") Now, this is where the theory varies. The guardian angel needs to be appointed to another being. Well, they could be appointed to the baby that is born nearest them, and closest to the time they died (such as on "Hearts and Souls" [that's a really good movie, I recommend watching it ^__^]) or they could be attracted to a being whose electrical current (just remembered, this current could be seen as an aura as well. That is how I interpret it) that is most like the guardian angels. This would make more sense if only I could remember what I'd read. There are some loopholes in my theory, like if every being is meant to hae a guardian angel, and a guardian angel only becomes so by being dead, and we're meant to be appointed with one the minute we're born, well... wouldn't we run out of angels eventually? I mean, there's got to be a time when more babies are born then people have died, right? Well... maybe we don't all have guardian angels. We most likely all have had one, or will have one, at some point in time. But if a baby is born in a perfect environment and has a great future ahead, what's the point in having a guardian angel? Whereas if a baby is born in a perfect environment and somewhere along the line slips into a slightly depressed state, wether mentally, physically or whatever else, it would need a guardian angel more then those who have life pretty much sussed for now. So, guardian angels could move around from being to being, depending on who needs them most. Which almost completely contradicts my "The electrical currents in the living attract the angels of similar currents" theory. Although, there could be certain types of electric currents. Let's look at them as auras... In most movies when you can see a persons aura, it takes on a certain colour, and that colour explains their personality. So if someone had a black aura, they would be depressed or coldhearted. So maybe the electric currents are like that, there are certain types of electricty in these currents that attract different angels, so we are not 100% unique.
So as a one sentance summary to all that, guardian angels become guardian angels from taken on the electrical currents of a being recently deceased, and find living targets, depending on the form of electricity in their could-be auras.
As you probably noticed, a lot of that was just thought up on the spot (I'm good at that ) and it's still a bit messy and needs some work. What do you think? And if you can find any more loopholes or contradictions, please let me know, I find great pleasure in lulling this over, and I would love to prove my theory right. If you've managed to read all that, congratulations and thankyou very much.

((Hey look, the little emoticons worked ^__^))

Here's the whole thing: http://www.gaiaonline.com/forum/viewtopic.php?t=15647135&page=1

You should check it out, it's a really interesting read.

Other things I'm interested in learning more about: Alchemy and dream interpretations. Know anything about any of these subjects? LET ME KNOWWWW and I will love you forever ^_^. Providing it's useful information.

60 Words

Remember the poem I created for a competition? A Fallen Halo? With the cardboard box theme? Fuck off then...

Haha, well I'm entering another competition (GOLD! MUST HAVE GOLD!) and it's flash fiction, ie. A fictional story with 100 words or less. Well I used my idea of loss of innocence for it, and I came up with a 60 word story. It's more like a rant thing... I wander what my chances are? They said the shorter the better...

Innocence is lost all too easily. Remember the days where a cardboard box could become a castle? We were so careless back then, we didn't know anything of pain or hate. We were so free. What I wouldn't give to go back to those days! To escape the world through a plain cardboard box, a portal to a mystical land.

Countdown

Hey, look, it's four am,
And I'm lying on the floor again,
I swore last time would be the end,
I lied straight to your face.

Another night spent on my arse,
I swear this one won't be the last,
I shoved a chick, she dropped her glass,
I left in utter disgrace.

Would you look at me now?
You said I didn't know how,
The good times came around,
Just look at me now.

Mornings just aren't for me,
I'm still asleep at half past three,
Don't wat a job, don't need money,
I live with my mum and dad.

If you pick me up I'll lie back down,
If you wake me up I'll shove you around,
I fell face first into the ground,
My lifestyle not that bad...

Would you look at me now?
You said I didn't know how,
The good times came around,
Just look at me now.

You brag alot, I say "Good for you."
At least I can stay awake past two,
You take a sip, I drink 'til I'm blue,
To me that's all that matters.

I break promises to all my friends,
I pick up random chicks and then
I'll kick them out when I come to a dead end,
And watch them as they shatter.

Would you look at me now?
You said I didn't know how,
The good times came around,
Just look at me now.

My life, it rates number one,
Too busy to stop an buy a gun,
To make my time on earth all done,
I will be just fine.

Can't stop, won't stop, I'm on my feet,
Gotta meet everyone there is to meet,
Gotta walk down every single street,
I'm running out of time.

Would you look at me now?
You said I didn't know how,
The good times came around,
Just look at me now.

Broken Chains

Stuck in cains, wasting away,
I won't see the light of another day,
Trapped inside with a longing to be free,
To get away and just be me.
I can't be good enough, so why try?
Why skirt around the obvious instead of living my life?
I'm gonna break free tonight

Buried alive, I'm feeling sick,
This feels like a game, some twisted trick,
I'm tired of bleeding, tired of my cries,
Tired of living my life in disguise.
I can't be good enough, so why try?
Why skirt around the obvious instead of living my life?
I'm gonna break free tonight

Sorry to disappoint you, but I must confess,
I'm not a puppet, I have a heart inside this chest,
I don't need strings 'cause I know how to move,
But it's hard to move in these chains, and it's because of you.
I can't be good enough, so why try?
Why skirt around the obvious instead of living my life?
I'm gonna break free tonight

Exhausted, I take the mask from my eyes,
I don't care if they see what lay inside,
I'm gonna break free tonight

Ramblings Of A Demon Mind Part 2

Here's a poem-thingy in rant form... or a rant in poem form... O.o Either or

I wonder what it's like,
To be asolutely free,
To see rare sights and do new things,
To meet interesting people,
And leanr of other cultures,
To spread my wings and fly,
Be a bird on the breeze,
Ever moving, always adventuring,
I wonder what it's like
To escape.

Prophecy

A song! A song! This song... guh where to start? The rhythm is all out of whack, it kind of goes from one thing to another, a lot of random "short sentance, long sentance", repetition, which is good if used right, but it's not used right... Simple rhyming! Very simple rhyming, when's the last time I used that? (I'm actually asking, I can't remember... I don't like simple rhyming!!) Which only really leaves the wording and the theme to be proud of... And yet, I hereby proclaim this song my signiture song! And the crowd goes wild... with wtfige! Yes, I did just say that I'm making this my signiture song. There's something about it... I guess I finally made a song that fully describes me, not my feelings or a simple side of me, it describes me. And no, I will not... um what's the word? Interpet it for you? =S I'm not gonna spell out the meaning of it, pulling a Davey Havok here, I'm never saying what I mean in my songs. Ever.
... Hopefully not.. Well here it is!

These walls are closing in on me,
Now red lights are all I see.
What are these thoughts running 'round my mind?
I'm searching for answers, scared of what I'll find.
Somewhere, somehow in the dark of the day,
My sanity silently slipped away,
And now I mumbled meaningless words,
An insane little girl and a threat to the world.

The writing on the walls,
That only I can see,
The writing on the walls,
It seems to be telling me,
An insane little girl staring at the walls,
An insane little girl continues to bleed.

These chains are choking out my heart,
My minds been roughly ripped apart,
Sitting alone in a world fading fast,
Sitting alone, this girl won't last.
I want to run, escape this place,
But I can't trust the human race,
So I'll sit and shiver, staring at my walls,
I'll sit and watch as the world around me falls.

The writing on the walls,
That only I can see,
The writing on the walls,
It seems to be telling me,
An insane little girl staring at the walls,
An insane little longs to be free.

Alone and cold, all hope has left me,
Left me for dead and is watching me bleed,
Alone and cold, a sad little girl cries,
Roses spring from her wrists as blood drips from her eyes,
Somone sheild my sight from the burning red light,
My hands are bound and the glare is bright,
Growing pale, growing thin on my prison floor,
This sad little girl is about to become no more.

The writing on the walls,
That only I can see,
The writing on the walls,
It seems to be telling me,
A sad little girl staring at the walls,
A sad little girl is growing weak.

I cannot trust another being,
I shall not trust them, it seems to me
That this corrupt world falls into decay
So fast that it can be seen by a girl barely sane,
Life is but a merry-go-round, ever rising and falling, 'til you come to a dizzy stop,
But I'm riding backwards, on the bottom reaching for the top,
And this sad little girl will be forever unloved,
She won't want affection, she's hard to trust.

The writing on the walls,
That only I can see,
The writing on the walls,
It seems to be telling me,
A sad little girl, staring at the walls,
A sad little girl, so untrustworthy.

There's writing on the walls that only I can read,
There are people here only the walls can see,
An insane little girl split her personality,
While a sad little girl lives on in misery.

It has a picture to go with it! I just ranomly found this picture, right before I came on here, and I'm like "Wow! That's so totally my song! Jeebus, someones stalking me!! ... Yum, A.F.I..."

Proof that Maru Youkai has a twisted mind...

Well! You thought my mind wasn't quite so twisted huh? Well indeed. Listen to my random thoughts I had last night...

Well, it was around 2 am, or 2:30 or something, and computer was boring so I thought I'd go to bed, but I couldn't sleep so I just let my mind wander. And I started thinking about A.F.I (shock horror!) and my random A.F.I thought this time (that I admit I've had many other times) is what I'd do if A.F.I came to my house. My very first thought was "talk the ears off every last member". And well, I said I'd show Davey my cat Tosca, seeing as he loves cats (*spasms again*) and I'd prolly end up telling him every last fact about Tosca, how we found her, how we came to name her, all the funny/stupid/gorgeous things she's done. Then we'd prolly move on to the computer, where I'd show them my thousands of A.F.I photos, just to prove my love (oh, by the way, I sorted through them today, and it took me two whole hours!! I still can't believe I have that many...) and show them all the A.F.I projects I've done (and am in the process of doing...) and maybe even show them a song or two ^__^. Then of course I'd just HAVE to have Julia around! And we'd prolly go down to the park and kick the soccer ball or hang around and be absolute retards XP. And then later on in the evening when Julia left, I thought Davey would prolly have an idea for a song, and he'd be sitting at the kitchen table, with me cross legged on the table, and we'd be putting this song together, and sharing songwriting tips. And Jade and Hunter could teach some shit on the guitar while Adam and Dad have a round on the piano. Then I thought the next day Julia would be over again (actually now that I think of it, Julia would prolly just sleepover) we'd go to the swimming centre, and Jade and Hunter would prolly jump off the highest diving board, while I'm sitting on Adams shoulders cuz I can't reach XP and Davey and Julia are treading water beside us (Adam is on his tippy toes, he can just touch, Davey can't touch and neither can Julia) and Jade and Hunter jump off at the same time and bomb into the word, and the life saver guard thingy is looking all grumpy that they did that. And then I started to think, "I'm only doing the things I like to do. What if they don't like these things?" and the line "I'm only doing the things I like to do" brought the funniest image to my mind! Well, I'm a big fan of netball, and I imagined A.F.I in short netball skirts and bibs XP. Lmfao! I'm so cruel. I can even remember what positions they played... Jade was Centre, Hunter was WA (that's my position! *squeals*) Adam was GS and Davey was GK. Then my mind wandered onto nightmarish thoughts... (that didn't include A.F.I or anything dirty... sick, sick people) and I ended falling asleep (Tis now nearly 3:30) and I had the WEIRDEST dream!! I can't remember it much but... let's see how I go...
Well we're at school, and the teachers are sniffing cocaine O.O... and I think they're saying "You must never do this, but you may as well learn how to do it right" and then... we have to go downstairs where some of the year 7's from last year are, and we have to make these animals out of all different bits of paper, and then paint them, and everyone's making pigs but I want to do something different, and for some reason I came really late to the activity and I'm the last one and it's the last day of school and schools about to end, and only Rebecca is there with me now, and I can't decide what I want to make, so I'm like, "Tell you what, I'll take the paper home and create an animal in the holidays, and then first day back we'll paint it, kay?" and she's like "Yeah, sure, good idea." So we're packing up the classroom, pushing tables against the wall and stacking chairs, but strangely we're stacking chairs on top of the tables in stead of in a pile next to them, and all the tables are like too small for the chairs, so we have to put them on diagnally, and it's hard. Suddenly Miss Williams is like, "Claire you need to give me your animal, I can see it's not there." And I'm like shit! I'm busted! And she's saying all this stuff about "I can see them from here, and yours isn't there!" and then suddenly it's the holidays, and I'm on this hill mucking around with... someone... can't remember who it was. It was possibly Rebecca. And I'm thinking "I should do that animal now... but I can't think of what to do..." and we're having all this fun so soon I forget about it, and then mum comes and starts accusing me of doing drugs, and I start remembering the teachers sniffing cocain in class, and I'm like "No! I've never done drugs!! Never!" and I'm getting all offended and teary, and suddenly it's like my mums high, she's dancing around like a lunatic, going in circles across this broken path and then up the hill and down the hill and back across the path, and I decide to join in, Bec's just gone and disappeared, so it's me and mum dancing like friggin retards, and then there's sand around, like it's the same place but sand everywhere, and I have to step in the footprints mum leaves, and somehow I know it's step in her footprints or die, so I'm stressing out and about to burst into tears, and her footprints are getting huge and far apart, and I can't do it... and that's all I remember... although I'm pretty sure there was more to it...

And now you know. Maru Youkai has a twisted mind.

Photo Crazy!

Oh yeah, I took all these. Random photo's, YAY! I could soo be a landscape photographer XP.
And no, there will be none of me. Haha suckers, you thought you'd finally get to see the famous Maru Youkai! *hopes they don't know there's a picture of me on Jordies blog, but realises they don't know which one is Jordies blog or which one is me. Muahahaha!*

My ancient phone. Hey, it was free and works just fine. It has a sexier black cover. I'm gonna bombard this one with stickers... when I can be bothered to buy them, that is.







Okay, so I lied when I said there'd be no pictures of me. Well, it's not exactly a picture of me, it's of my wrist, so that's no so bad. That lovehearts kind of retarded, and has now been replaced with Satans symbol (gotta love that symbol!), and yes I drew it, but I stole the style from Georgia XP














Here are some pages from my notebook. On the right we have one of my many "Scribble Pages", and on the left we have the AFI symbol I created. I also did one for Jade, Davey and Adam, and I'm working on the design for Hunter's now. Wow, I always leave Hunter last! I'M HORRIBLE!! In the next A.F.I project I do, Hunter's coming first!!
These are my former headphones. You really can't see it very well, but I've completely mangled them, pulled the wires everywhere etc. Fun! Oh, and I made a sling of the earpieces. Ask Liz, she knows how lethal it is! I smacked myself on the back of the head (smart move, ey?) with them, and it hurt like all hell, my vision went blurry and I almost fell over. I tell you, they can kill! I named them Davey's Teeth because Davey is a vampire so his teeth are deadly, just like the sling XP.



Liz says "hellooo" to Maru Youkai and her many, many fans! Special.








My fuzzy green boots! Jeebus, I love these boots! Me and Jordie are boot buddies... and guess what? I named them! The left one is Jade, the right is Hunter, because Jade is always on the left side of the stage and Hunter's on the right XP.


This is my dreamcatcher. Ain't it pretty? Tis pretty big, too. My sister got it for me for Christmas. From Mystic Moon. Jeebus, I love that shop. And out of blue and pink she had to get me a pink one... >.<
Well, it does match my bedspread, which my Grandma got me...




And to end, a picture of my floor! There's my guitar, which I never practice XP. I want a goddamn electric! And then there's my pjs scrawled up behind it, my guitar book and sheets (apparantly I do practice...), my scruffy boots and my shoes! Well, wasn't that fantastic?

O.O Maru Youkai wishes... O.O

that her eyes be sporked out and burned!!! ... And then replaced by new one's so I can see my beautiful babies without that horrid horrid sight haunting my mind...

*Takes a deep breath...*

Somebody...

made...

a..

"Jesus Loves A.F.I" icon!!!

*screams and cries and claws eyes and has a MAJOR spaz attack on the floor*
It's not true!! Jesus does NOT love A.F.I! IT'S ALL LIES!!! SOMEBODY TELL ME IT'S ALL LIES!!!!!
*crying, screaming and spazzing*
Jesus is a poofhead!! ('Scuse me all religious people, I mean no disrespect) SATAN LOVES A.F.I! JESUS HATES THEM!! AND A.F.I HATES JESUS!!! ... I think...
WAAAA ERASE IT!!! ERASE IT!!! I'M GONNA BRUTALLY SLAUGHTER THE PERSON WHO MADE THAT ICON!!!!

IT'S NOT TRUE!!

Funeral Status

Oh my Lord God Davey! Somebody shoot me! I meant to post this song earlier today... well yesterday seeing as it's 1:30 am... but anyway, I meant to post this song HOURS ago but I forgot! I'm sorry all my loyal fans who were sitting at home banging there heads against the desk praying for another of Maru's fabulous songs!!
Gee... I have waaay to much self confidence XP Y'all know I was just kidding, don't cha's?

Anyway, I found it half done, so I finished it. It's a mix of my old style and my new style.
Actually... between you and me... it's not that old XP
I said it was old everywhere else because it's so much like my old stye, the whole "I miss you bad, somebody kill me" shit. *shifty eyes* This never leaves this post!


Black dresses, gravestones, white roses,
Tear stricken, sober faces, a body decomposes.

Why must you leave me?
Leave me broken and bleeding,
Why must he be so cold?

I don't want to die alone,
With a heart full of pain unknown,
I don't want to let you go.

And as I slowly fall,
You join me, so enthralled,
And I slowly slip into surrealism

Black dresses, gravestones, white roses,
Tear stricken, sober faces, a body decomposes.

Drop by drop, I'm fading,
My salted tears cascading,
I just want you back.

Yes, my heart is slowing.
Yes, the world is growing,
Fuck that, I'll stay as I am.

Why'd you have to change on me?
Change the way you think, what you see,
Or maybe it was me all along?

Black dresses, gravestones, white roses,
Tear stricken, sober faces, a body decomposes.
Black dresses, gravestones, white roses,
Tear stricken, sober faces, a body decomposes.

Maru Youkai's Random Picture Award!

This is not an award for pictures that are random, it is my Random Picture Award [RPA] because I'll randomly throw it in whenever there's a picture worth advertising =D


And the winner of the first Annual Random Picture Award goes to....

Davey with a kitty!I love this photo! It does look much better when it's BIG. I have that version as my desktop, and a smaller version of just Davey andthe kitty as my msn dp. I'll prolly post that one later on. Davey's favourite animals are cats!! *Squeals and spasms on the floor* Jeebus, I've been doing that alot tonight. Found a new stash of A.F.I photos you see...
In case you didn't already realise, my favourite animals are cats too, that's why I had that spaz attack.

An Angel Of Another Kind

I shot my angel and made her cry,
I broke her wings so she will be forever mine,
I held her down, I kept her warm,
But the heat was too much for her sensitive form.

She wanted love, I gave her more
Then what she could've asked for,
She wanted freedom, I let her run,
I should've kept her, what's done is done.

My angel, she ran far into the night,
She thinks she's safe but she's in my sight,
I'll save her from herself, cut her off from the world,
I will be her beloved and she will be my girl.

She wanted love, I gave her more
Then what she could've asked for,
I made her mine and mine she'll stay,
I have her in my arms and she won't get away.

I shot my angel to keep her alive,
Her wings are torn so she cannot fly,
And I will keep her as my own,
She needed a chair, I carved her a throne.

She wanted love, I gave her more
Then what she could've asked for,
Now she is not quite so sure,
That she wants my eternal love anymore.

Though my angel bleeds when the night is dark,
She's with me so she cannot be harmed,
"It's alright" I assure as I kiss her flesh,
And watch her slowly fade to death.

Well... my eyes better...

Hahaha... Hi again. Well, you'll be cacking yaselfs to hear this... After complaining about my eye I turned the computer off and went to my bedroom, but it was dark because everyone was asleep so there were no lights on, and I walked into the door. So it's like "AHH MY EYEE MY EYEE *smash* AHHHH MY HEAD!!!!" XP Yeah, in case you haven't guessed I'm a bit of a clutz. But, things started to brighten after that.
I had this quote from Josh (sorry Manda...) and I really liked it so I was thinking and I grabbed out my notebook and started to write and I wrote a song and shit, and when I started to write my eye was just like "FINE! Don't pay attention to me!" and the pain went away. So I had a healed eye and a cool new song. And a cat that tried to eat my notebook XP Omg Tosca's gorgeous! Let's get a pic of her, shall we? There we go! Sheeshamoni that's a big picture. Isn't she just gorgeous? That's her in my kitchen and under the covers of my mums bed. My gorgeous darling bubby girl. She's also cleaning herself right next to me on the table. Yes, I am in love with cats, especially mine. My cat is much cuter then yours! With the feeling so pure!

Um, Ouchy! O.+

Ouchy ouchy ouchy! My eyeee! I poked myself in the eye. With my hair! It's so queer O.o... I was playing with a big chunk of my hair, and the ends are all split and sharp, and next thing I know the whole chunk of my hair is stabbing me in the eye! IT HURT! Got all teary, almost wetted the keyboard. Now my eyes all red and hurts like all hell. Anyway, just thought I'd complain. Maybe it's a sign? Mehehehe. My hair wants my eye dead!
Actually I'm just stalling. I have to go to but thissss is a good song. I wrote some of the lyrics on my wall. Yeah, my wall, maybe I should tell you about that some time? I could include pictures... *chuckles* ... Inside joke there... *winks* OW THAT HURT *rubs eyeee*
No but seriously, my eye seriously does hurt like all hell. It's burning! BURNING!!!!

While I'm here, have I ever told you of my yearning for screamo singing? I WANT TO LEARN HOW TO SCREAM LIKE SONNY! Davey's a pretty ace screamer too! I can do it most times, just not in "song form" and only when I'm mucking about and not actually trying... hey look I just replayed the song XP

Back to complaining... shit this eye really does hurt!!! Jeebus Christamoonie!! I wondered what it'd look like if I looked in the mirror... +.o < prolly a lil something like that. My hair is fucking lethal!!
... I could use this to my advantage...

EDIT: I looked in the mirror and my eye is exactly the same! It's like invisible pain O.o... But hurts like someones stabbed it!! And I'm not being a whimp! And might I add that I really like the colour of my eyes? Now that's something worth photographing! ... If you're lucky I'll post a picture of my eye... only if you're lucky.

A Fallen Halo

This was written for a {unprofessionalised..} competition. It had to involve playing in a cardboard box. I'm quite proud of myself really, because everyone thought of writing about a young child, whereas I was the only one who was looking back on my childhood, and originality is worth at least 5 points (I can't remember if it was ten or five...) so that's gotta be worth something. Still not sure if I'll win though, there were some really good ones! O.o Perhaps I'll get an honorable mention? *Secretly knows there are no honorable mentions in this particular competition... shoot*

Haunted by memories, so pure and untouched,
Haunted by the days where innocence roamed,
The days we ran the width of our earth,
And rode the Seven Seas in our cardboard box.

These treasured days now seem so far away,
Our innocence sliding through cracks in time,
Like water through our open fingers,
The cardboard box lay neglected, gathering dust.

What happened to those children, young and carefree?
What happened to imagination, a lust for learning?
Where appreciation once sat, envy now stands,
A box once influenced creativity, now it prompts nothing.

Growing up too fast in a world full of animosity,
We stand and stare, observing our world fall,
Fall into death and decay, we lost the days
Where a cardboard box could become a kingdom.

The box that holds so many memories dear to me,
That holds my childhood, my youth, my past,
Shall sit motionless, watching, waiting for another young mind,
To touch the world, to bring freedom and innocence,
If only for a day.

Manda, I blame this song on you!! ^_^ Thanks a lot for helping me with yet another song

Bite! Bite!

If you have a pure heart, let me bite you.
If you don't, I'll rip your cold heart out of you!
Either way, I get money. Go here

Dun dun dunnn

Hooray! I finally finished those "Worship these men". About bloody time! I'm so ashamed. It's hard! My brain is not used to making things like that up! At least not things as long as that. I'm used to write songs and short random writings. As much as I love making excuses for it, I'm still really really ashamed of myself. Especially Hunters! I haven't even seen it properly yet. [Random complaint: Damn this space key!!] I sincerely hope they never ever see those. I doubt they will but anyway.
That is all.
For now...

People To Stalk!

I said I'd put it on here sometime, and since I was already putting 177 random ways to die... This is in no particular order

PEOPLE TO STALK

Davey Havok
Jade Puget
Adam Carson
Hunter Burgen
The dude who created milo
Liz >=D
Some random stranger
Georgina (stalk her and kill her)
James Blunt (stalk him and kill him)
Johnny Depp
Orlando Bloom
David Strassman
That little kid from Bogus
God
Satan
Gatesy
Yonnie
Scott
THE DUDE WHO CREATED LOLLIPOPS! LOLLIPOPSSSSSSSSSS
The dude who created POPROCKS

177 Really Random Ways to Die!

Let's try and get it to 200!

1. Drowning in AFI songs
2. Being shot/stabbed/beaten while trying to hug Jade or Davey
3. Being shot down by police/crazy wild fans for kidnapping every AFI member
4. Being trampled at AFI concert.
5. Drowning in CDS
6. Laughing so hard you die
7. Choking on own saliver because you've laughed too hard
8. Killing Georgina/James Blunt and then drowning in his/her blood.
9. Having an aeroplane crash because you saw Jade on it, ran to hug him, tripped and bashed the pilot and co pilots heads together (so long as jade lives)
10. Going to an ultra rocking AFI concert and having your head explode because of all the smexy/awesomeness
11. Going to an ultra rocking concert and having your head explode because of all the smexy/awesomeness
12. Mailing yourself to AFI and then drowning in fan mail.
13. Mailing yourself to AFI and then getting thrown in the trashcan
14. Dying in your sleep after dreaming of AFI
15. Getting SHMACKED in the head after grabbing Daveys balls
16. Singing an ultra annoying song and getting squashed by a building which Ninja Jade cut down because the ultra annoying song woke him up.
17. Going to get food but being attacked by a gang of ninjas led by Jade
18. Be trampled by the screaming chicks as Ninja Jade plays his guitar on top of the building he cut down which squished some dude who sang an ultra annoying song.
19. Being asked by Jade if you want to fight him or make out with him, and choosing makeout.
20. Being hugged to death by Trunks
21. Being hugged to death by Jade or Davey
22. EATING THIS LIST *sharpens poison daggers*
23. Getting away with eating the RANDOM WAYS TO DIE list but choking because you saw Jade
24. Being tickled to death by Trunks
25. Farting so big it blows your arse off and wipes out half the nation
26. Choking on headphones
27. Trying to kiss a Jade poster but getting your lips stuck and having to saw them off and dying from loss of blood
28. Trying to kiss a Jade poster but it comes alive and bashes the shit out of you
29. Trying to kiss Jade...
30. Stealing Daveys makeup
31. Stealing Daveys pants
32. Stealing last slice of key lime pie while Daveys in the cafe
33. Having to watch Davey dance for two hours (back when he was a rapper)
34. Laughing so hard you die because you've just seen Davey dancing (back when he was a rapper)
35. Paying out AFI while Claire, Liz or Julia are around
36. Paying out AFI while Claire, Liz AND Julia are around
37. Laughing so hard you die because you've just seen Trunks dressed as a woman.
38. Being a peice of shit on the ground and getting stepped on by Jade
39. Being a peice of shit on the ground and getting stepped on by Jade who wipes his shoe on Daveys arse, who wipes his arse on Adams leg, who wipes his leg on Hunters arm who throws his jacket in the bin.
40. Stuffing your face with junk and eventually just going POP
41. Stuffing your face with junk and then seeing Jade or Davey and choking
42. Asking Davey why he is wearing makeup
43. Calling Davey gay to his face
44. Calling Davey gay to Jade
45. Calling Davey gay to Liz, Claire or Julia
46. Calling Davey gay to Liz, Claire AND Julia
47. Getting caught spying on Jade while his showering
48. Going to an AFI concert and having your head explode because this chick is screaming so loud
49. Going to an AFI concert and screaming so loud that chick next to you's head blows up and then being bashed by her boyfriend
50. Trying to stop Liz, Claire or Julia from going to a AFI concert
51. Trying to stop Liz, Claire AND Julia from going to a AFI concert
52. Trying to eat really, really fast so you can get back to your AFI music and choking
53. Borrowing $200 from a hitman so you could fly to Tasmania to see AFI seeing as they left Adelaide off the tour and not paying him back.
54. Having a joke and telling someone to jump off a cliff but they take it seriously and jump and then being hunted by all their friends.
55. Having a joke and telling Jade to jump off a cliff but he takes it seriously and jumps and then being hunted by Jade fans
56. Drinking coke and choking because you saw Jade in a towel.
57. Drinking coke and choking because you saw Jade in a towel and then being murdered because you coughed up coke all over the brand new keyboard.
58. Drinking coke and choking because you saw Jade in a towel and then being murdered because you coughed up coke all over the brand new keyboard and THEN having Jade come and kick you arse for staring at him in a towel.
59. Buying the last Decemberunderground CD and having Liz, Claire or Julia coming to buy the CD.
60. Telling the freaky dude that came up to you and said "I've spent the last five years in heaven trying to contact you and now you give me THIS bullshit??" that he needs a mint.
61. Eating three apples a day and then saying "No doctor will dare come near me" and then being stampeded by doctors who want to prove you wrong
62. Having your friend eat three apples and then saying "No doctor will dare come near me" and then coughing loudly as she gets bombarded by doctors.
63. Paying out THE MOOSE WITH A ROOM
64. Going to the Big Day Out and paying out AFI then being attacked by AFI fans
65. Going to the Big Day Out and telling a drunk you stole his belly fluff
66. Throwing eggs at random cars and hitting a limosuine and having this big buff guy come out.
67. Throwing eggs at random cars and hitting a limosuine and having AFI come out.
68. Grabbings Daveys balls while Liz, Claire or Julia are in the crowd
69. Being a bouncer at an AFI concert and punching some kid that got too close
70. Punching a bouncer that punched a kid and then telling all the kids to attack the bouncers and then being cornered in the changing rooms.
71. Walking into a shotgun convention and paying out shotguns
72. Walking into a ninja convention and paying out ninjas.
73. Telling a vampire he overdid his halloween costume.
74. Telling the tellietubbies they're evil and then being stabbed by the evil tellietubbies
75. Telling Elmo where you live
76. Having a blind man ask you where to go, then pointing and saying "Right over there" and then finding out it was a blind ninja as he kicks your arse with his numchucks.
77. Trying to pierce your tongue with a carrot
78. Being told you can't pierce your tongue because there's a vein in the way but trying anyway
79. Being told you can't pierce your tongue because there's a vein in the way but trying anyway with a carrot.
80. Trying to find out if you can get a brain piercing
81. Trying to convince Davey to pierce his tongue with a carrot
82. Telling Amanda that Trunks is gay
83. Telling Trunks that he is gay
84. Writing, saying or thinking "Claire loves James Blunt"
85. Falling into yesterday, then wondering how you could fall into yesterday and thinking about it so much your brain explodes
86. Going back in a time machine and landing on your mother, killing her, so that you were never born and thus aren't alive.
87. Thinking about going back in a time machine and landing on your mother, killing her, so that you were never born and thus aren't alive, and then wondering how that's possible and thinking about it so much your brain explodes.
88. Stealing Trunks' time machine
89. Stealing Trunks' time machine, going forward in time and being killed by androids.
90. Seeing your fish has died so sticking your head in the bowl to give it mouth to mouth but swallowing it instead.
91. Seeing your fish has died so sticking your head in the bowl to give it mouth to mouth but getting it stuck and drowning.
92. Seeing your fish has died so sticking your head in the bowl to give it mouth to mouth but getting it stuck and smashing it against the wall only to kill yourself.
93. Future Amanda finding out Trunks is in a different time zone and hunting down you because you stole the time machine.
94. Stealing Trunks' time machine and crushing Trunks with it... in front of Amanda
95. Being in a limosuine and sticking your finger up at everyone, then finding out the windows aren't actually tilted because this big bikie gang starts bashing you.
96. Paying out Davey because he pronounces ground grouwnd, and then getting five billion people smash your head into the grouwnd.
97. Paying out Punk Bob the Burnt Toast
98. Putting Davey, Jade, Adam, Hunter, Trunks, Punk Bob the Burnt Toast and Maru Youkai in a room and having a "Now let's pick out all your faults" session
99. Putting Davey, Jade, Adam, Hunter, Trunks, Punk Bob the Burnt Toast and Maru Youkai in a room and having a "Maybe you should all get councelling..." session
100. Hugging Trunks with Amanda watching
101. Deciding that you'd like to try everything on this list.
102. Reading this list and then asking Claire who AFI are
103. Stealing Liz's wig
104. Being stranded in a storm and running under a tree to call for help on your mobile.
105. Cutting Jades hair while his asleep.
106. Insisting over and over that AFI's "treasure hunt" is leading to their breakup
107. Challenging Maru to a spoon fight
108. Challenging Jade to a spoon fight
109. Standing behind Jade the horse after his eaten then drowning in his piss.
110. Paying out Jade the Ninja Chicken and then being clawed to death by Jade the Ninja Chicken and all his chicken followers
111. Calling Jade the Ninja Chicken a chicken and then being clawed to death by Jade the Ninja Chicken and all his chicken followers
112. Daring Maru to kill you
113. Daring Maru to kill Georgina and then being killed because you didn't bail Maru out of prison so she broke out.
114. Stealing Maru's poison daggers
115. Stealing Maru's baseball bat
116. Stealing Maru's shotgun
117. Stealing Maru's sling
118. Stealing Ninja Jade's numchucks
119. Telling God to smite you
120. Telling Maru to smite you
121. Making another damn icon implying that Davey and Jade are gay together
122. Stealing Liz's apple
123. Stealing Liz's frying pan
124. Stealing Liz's banana
125. Stealing Liz
126. Overusing the word "cheese".
127. Stealing Trunks
128. Having a water fight and putting down your water pistol while you go pee, then having a hitman come and swap your water pistol with a real gun to cover his tracks, then picking up the pistol and being an idiot by saying "Oh, I can't go on anymore!" *BANG*
129. Having a water fight and swapping your friends water pistol with a real gun, and then them being an idiot by saying "Oh, I can't go on anymore!" *BANG* and being haunted by their angry spirit
130. Standing in front of Liz when she has a cold and drowning in snot as she sneezes on you
131. Standing in front of Liz when she has a stomache bug and drowning in spew as she throws up on you
132. Trying to make a milo when your mums trying to put the shopping away, closing the fridge door to get to the cupboard and being murdered because your mum had an armful of things to go in the fridge
133. Trying to make a milo when your mums trying to put the shopping away, making sure the fridge door doesn't close to avoid being murdered, turning around and smashing into the freezer door.
134. Having your mum fall very sick and being asked to go to the doctors and get her prescribed medicine, but spending the money on the Decemberunderground cd instead.
135. Telling Claire she *wasted* all her money on a *stupid* AFI cd
136. Going up to Miss Callanan and saying "God is a sick, twisted and cruel bastard."
137. Spreading the rumour that the topic of beards is stale.
138. Saying "no one likes me" and then being stampeded by people who love you.
139. Poking a ninja and then being bombarded by ninjas who are all like "YOU POKED A FELLOW CIRCLE ARMY NINJA!!! ATTAAAAAAAAACK"
140. Commenting on how Jade is a girls name...
141. Sucking on an icey pole, seeing Davey walk by and choking... only to realise it wasn't Davey
142. Trying to divebomb a chicken but realising it's a ninja chicken and getting your arse kicked, Ninja Chicken Style!
143. Trying to dive down the plughole of your bathtub because your sister informed you that Trunks lives there
144. Being a slow arse when Maru is trying to get to the shelf you are standing in front of because there is a new AFI cd there.
145. Keeping Michael from coming online when Amanda is waiting *PATIENTLY* for him
146. Paying out Tosca
147. Saying Tosca is anything less then a punk rocking, circle going, ninja kitty!
148. Saving up a years worth of allowance and buying AFI tickets, waiting three months for them to finally come and then the night before the show getting grounded and throwing such a big hissy fit your head explodes.
149. Having your brain attacked by little mini ice cubes because you inhaled an ice block
150. Getting a can wedged into your brain because you decided to sniff Coke like all the cool kids do
151. Paying out pink pinkies and then being attacked by pink pinky worshipers.
152. Painting an apple purple with toxc paint to make it look cool. And then eating it.
153. Getting high, mistaking AFI for the Groovy Ghoulies and breaking Marks guitar as payback for not paying your friend who apparantly made flyers for them and then being beaten by Mark and the bouncers.
154. Trying to prevent Liz from drinking her coffee
155. Mixing the Dresdon Dolls with AFI. Then being murdered by Maru for insulting AFI with such bad backup band choice.
156. Putting "The Leaving Song Pt II" with a Nightmare Before Christmas. Then being squeezed to death by the much approving Maru.
157. Telling the purple bunnies they're leader looks like Madonna.
158. Going into a big convo with Claire and all her friends, then being bombarded by Claire's friends adding you until you drown in a sea of Claire's friends.
159. Showing Jade in a bath of black water with some guy hovering over it and then deciding to stop there.
160. Getting pissed off at your keyboard because you spilt coke on it and now it's screwed, throwing it out the window and hitting someone in the face, then having that person chase you with a pitchfork.
161. Paying out Tob Tob or Tobshca the Punk Kittys
162. A porridgy death... self explanatory
163. Coming to close to Claire when she's waving a baseball bat
164. Coming to close to Claire when she's waving firesticks
165. Coming to close to Claire...
166. Paying out Nick Carter when Jordan's around
167. Paying out the Backstreet Boys in general when Jordan's around
168. Not catching Maru when she tries to crowd surf.
169. Catching Davey a little too intimately when he tries to crowd surf.
170. Becoming a bouncer, going to an A.F.I concert and being bombarded by A.F.I fans
171. Paying out the Typo Chicks and drowning in typos.
172. Saying "Everyone loves me ^__^" and then being bombarded by people that hate you.
173. Exclaiming "Well trying never hurt anyone" and then trying to do the splits without stretching
174. Calling Punk Bob the Burnt Toast a poser
175. Calling Julia emo
176. Calling Jade emo
177. Calling Davey goth
178. Paying out Boris the Rock and then being crush by Boris the Rock
179. Trying to stop Maru Youkai from talking to her internet buddies.
180. Trying to stop Maru Youkai from listening to A.F.I
181. Deciding your tough enough to take on an emu and then realising your not as tough as you thought and getting your arse kicked, emu style!
182. Trying to stop Maru Youkai from getting 202 random ways to die on her random ways to die list.
183. Knowing A.F.I are coming to Australia, and knowing you can go, and being so excited you just... pop.
184. Knowing A.F.I are coming to Australia, and knowing you can go, and being so excited you just... pop. And then killing yourself for dying right when you were about to go to an A.F.I concert!
185. Exclaiming "I do anything you dare me to!" and having a not-so-friendly friend dare you to jump off a cliff.
186. Exclaiming "I do anything you dare me to!" and having a not-so-friendly friend dare you to hug Davey
187. Exclaiming "I do anything you dare me to!" and having a not-so-friendly friend dare you to disown A.F.I as your favourite band and killing yourself rather then doing what your not-so-friendly friend shamelessly dared you to do.
188. Trying to act like a chicken and deciding the best way to do this is sit with some chickens and getting your eyes scratched out by them
189. Trying to act like a chicken and deciding the best way to do this is lay an egg...
190. Trying to act like a chicken and becoming really good at it, so good at it that Jade the Ninja Chicken gets worried you'll try to take over and kills you.
191. Trying to view all Georgia's AMV's in one night because they are so awesomely rad, and then drowning in the awesomely rad AMV's
192. Trying to view all Georgia's AMV's in one night because they are so awesomely rad, just managing to finish them all and then Georgia says "Hey, guess what, I made more AMV's!!"
193. Putting Trunks and Michael on either side of a room and Amanda in the middle and saying "Choose."
194. Having a pillow fight and putting stones in your pillow case to better your chances of winning, killing the friend your pillow fighting with and getting haunted by there angry pillow weilding spirit.
195. Having a pillow fight and your friend putting stones in her pillow case to better her chances of winning.
196. Telling Maru Youkai that her random ways to die list is utter bullshit.
197. Watching Maru Youkai do the victory dance because she just got 202 random ways to die on her random ways to die list and then saying "Now go for 303", Maru's reply being "HOW ABOUT I CHOP YOU INTO 303 PIECES INSTEAD!!" and chopping you up into 303 pieces.
198. Watching Maru Youkai do the victory dance because she just got 202 random ways to die on her random ways to die list and then saying "Now go for 303" and Maru taking on the challenge and dying from the stress and then all Maru's fans hunting you down and chopping you up into 303 pieces.
199. Watching Maru Youkai do the victory dance because she just got 202 random ways to die on her random ways to die list and tripping her up. Then being cut into 303 pieces by an infuriated Maru Youkai.
200. Paying Maru Youkai out because she accidentally wrote "do" instead of "die" on the last three random ways to die and then being chopped into 303 pieces.
201. Absentmindedly dancing to invisible music in your head and being laughed at sooo badly you die of shame and embarassment
202. Exclaiming "I do anything you dare me to!" and having a not-so-friendly-friend dare you to attempt all the things on this list... twice.

Guess What Song I Have On Repeat THIS Time!

Yes, it's this again! And my taste in music this week has had a drastic change, neither for better or for worse. This song! Omg it's haunting me. One day I woke up and I'm just like "I think I'll listen to this song" and I haven't stopped listening to it since. What song is it? It's by A.F.I... It's from their new album, Decemberunderground... Come on! No, it's not the 21 Kill Song... Hang on, have I even told you's about that? I don't think I have! But that's for another day, my friends. It starts with a K! Come on, that just gave it all away!! It's Kiss and Control ^_^

Watch the stars turn you to nothing.
Now blush and smile as they whisk you away.
Part your lips a bit more, I'll swallow your fear.
I will show you how all the bite marks inpresse a need to be here, a need to see city lights, like rain, dance and explode, fall upon debutants reeling from nights that kiss and control all of our borken hearts.
Velvet burn the wrists while restraining.
You blushed and smiled and said you would stay.
One more time steal my breath, I'll feed you the sky.
I will show you how.
Steal the glamour from death and before you die, oh, you should see city lights, like raind, dance and explode, fall upon debutants reeling like nights that kiss and control all of our broken hearts.
"We all want to die like movie stars," you said as you jumped from the height of our cutting room floor while above us, glowing, exploding, our dreams burst forth in light and death.
Hold me and tell me "We'll burn like starts. We'll burn as we fall. Watch as city lights dance for us."

Hold me and tell me "We'll burn like starts. We'll burn as we fall. Watch as city lights dance for us." < I love that line. Just that line XP it rocksness. Oh and my acrobatics teacher was teaching as something (which I've forgotten) and you had to like squat then jump up... and he goes "Squat... and explode!" and I'm like "Squat and explode? DANCE AND EXPLOOOODE fall upon debutants reeling from nights that KISS AND CONTROLLLL

Hey... I like this song XP The leaving song I haven't listened to it that much and it just came on... as apposed to The leaving song Pt II that I'm in love with XP
Anyway, I'm off, catch ya's in a net!

Alice In Wonderland; The Real Ending

Ever wondered what Maru Youkai does at 2:15 in the morning? Well now you know! She writes twisted endings for random fairy tales!
Now I know most won't like this at all, and I know this from experience. As for you fellow twistosterones (twistosterones: People with twisted minds) I was quite proud, and I hope you will be too! Enjoy!

Where we left off: Alice has just walked out of the Mad Hatters tea party and into the Bizarre room. In the actual story, she is the perfect size to reach the key and fit through the door. In my story, it is not the Bizarre room she walks into, but straight into the "Beautiful Garden", except in my story its not the Beautiful Garden but a desolate wasteland, with dead trees and dried bushes everywhere. From here she meets the queen and the story continues as normal, until she gets to court. When she confronts the king and queen she is banished from Wonderland, but she runs and finds herself in the Bizarre room. She takes a bite out of one of her mushrooms and grows small enough to reach the key and fit through the door.

Smiling, Alice reached up and took the key.
"Of all the trouble I've gotten myself into," she said to herself. "This almost makes up for it." Taking the key from it's place, she walked over and opened the door. There it was, the wonderful garden, so beautiful, so peaceful, so safe. But there was something wrong.
"Odd..." commented Alice, as she stared at her own reflection. There was the garden behind it, but why could she see herself? She looked behind her. It was the same dark, gloomy room it had always been. Reluctantly, she reached out a hand and touched the image. It was solid!
"It was a trick! An imagery!" she cried, outraged. "All the trouble I went through to get here, and it was all a sham!" She sat down on the floor, tears springing in her eyes. "Now what am I going to do?"
In a sudden fit of rage, Alice stood and took the stool that stood beside the table that held the bottle marked "Drink Me" and the key to the marvellous doorway. Overwhelmed by all that had happened, she flung the stool into the curious mirror, and watched as it broke and shattered into a million tiny peices. She whipped her arm to her face, sheilding her eyes from the flying glass. But the mirror was not all she broke. As the glass shattered, so did the peculiar world, and everything around her slowly but surely dissolved, and when she looked up again she was floating in black nothingness.
"Oh dear! Now what have I done? What shall I do? What shall become of me?" In a panic, she could do nothing but float. Float in the black abyss she had sent herself into. Float through all traces of time. Float in a world without meaning, without feeling and without existence. She lost all knowledge. Knowledge of previous events, knowledge of who she was, knowledge of where she was.
For how long Alice floated, no one can be sure, but after what seemed a very long time her feet touched solid ground, and the darkness began to clear. Shivering, she tried to focus on her new surroundings. An uneasy feeling of familiarity swept over her. Slowly, the shadows faded, and she found herself underneath an overhanging tree. Stepping out, the place she encountered seemed more and more like something from a dream. But then, the who was to determine what was real and what was not? Afterall, the things that had happened to her recently would've felt very much surreal, if only she could remember them. Walking briskly, she found an old mansion and stepped inside, strangely knowing exactly where to go. Enchanted, Alice walked straight through the halls of the palace like house, right through to the front garden. It was set up as though the owners of the house were expecting guests, and there was a an old fashioned timer sitting on a corner table by the front door. Alice reached out and touched the pendulam, sending it ticking away, back and forth, and Alice became entranced by its movement. Quite suddenly everything came back to her, right before her eyes, as if a movie were running inside her mind. The party, the reluctantness to sing, the white rabbit, the peculiar world, the beautiful garden, the mirror, the black abyss. Alice gasped and yanked her hand away from the timer. Exhausted, she fell in a dead faint, a deep sleep, never to open her eyes again.

The end

I broke copyrite laws! Dun dun dunnn

Hello peepsicles. Yes, the last couple of posts have been taken from Liz's msn space. Thankyou and goodbye.

Damn this "Soundtrack of your life" goes on forever! I'm only up to song 8! ... I love this song too ^_^. Fuck it, I'm off to bed. Good morning Australia! It just hit 1 am.

Break and Shatter

Ahh! It's a tragedy! It's the end of the world! It happened quite a while ago actually, but I don't think I even had an account on blogger.com when I found out. It was like, around the same time I decided to make this to comment on Jordies blog. I think.What is it? The loss of Jade's single life! That's right fan chicks, prepare to go into mourning... Jade has got himself a girlfriend!! Lucky bitch.
I suppose it'll hold off all the "Javey" rumors now, thank Satan. Evil, evil people *glares*

Random Quiz

Q: What's the last text message on your mobile say?
A: 'A bit'

Q: Whose bed did you sleep in last night?
A: Mine. I shared it with my kitty

Q: What color shirt are you wearing?
A: Blue. It has tweety on it. It's my pyjamas

Q: What was the most recent movie that you watched?
A: Tripod.. is that a movie? It's a dvd. You know I really don't remember. Pretty sure it was Treasure Island... but I didn't watch it all the way through. By tomorrow night it will be "Jack and the beanstalk: the real story" Come see me again then.

Q: Name one thing that you do everyday:
A: Sleep, drink milo, listen to A.F.I

Q: What's the color of your bedroom walls?
A: Fugly cream normality colour. BORING

Q: How much cash do you have on you right now?
A : Ahh less the $15

Q: What's your favorite sport?
A: Sleep. AND A.F.I CONCERT

Q: When was the last time you saw your mom?
A: A few minutes ago. She was asleeping

Q: What did you have for dinner last night?
A: Curry. It was spicey!! I lasted the longest *proud face*

Q: Look to your left. What's there?
A: An open door O.o... It leads outside.... ITS SCARING ME

Q: What website(s) do you visit the most during the day?
A: You know what? I go on blogger.com and quizilla.com more then anything now. Sad, really...

Q: Do you have an air freshener in your car?
A: In my mums car, yes. She put too much in and if you sitin the front you drown in vanilla.

Q: Do you have plants in your room?
A: Nope. I used to have flowers in there but they kept dying to damn quickly and I couldn't be stuffed replacing them.

Q: Does anything hurt on your body right now?
A: My head =(

Q: What city was your last taxicab ride in?
A: Um Sydney I think it was. Or Melbourne. No! It was here in Adelaide when mums car broke down outside the shopping centre.

Q: Do you own a picture phone?
A: Nah, I gots a crap old phone.

Q: What's your favorite Starbucks drink?
A: Well i'm going to say milo even though i've never been to Starbucks

Q: Recent time you were really upset?
A: Umm... I can't think right now... I completey freaked out earlier on today though

Q: Would you have a problem if your friend went after your ex boyfriend/girlfriend?
A: Been there, done that.


_______Last________
1. Person you saw: Brother

2. Person you hugged: Julia

3. Person you talked on the phone with: Someone that didnt answer. *cries* im so unloved

4. Person you IM with: Becca.

5. Person you emailed: Liz

_______Today________
1. What are you doing now: Typing this up and listening to my "Soundtrack of your life" JEREMIAH WAS A BULLFROG!! *sings*

2. What are you doing tonight: Tonight?! Tonight is over!

3. What did you eat for lunch: I didn't

________Tomorrow___________
1. Is: Saturday

2. Got any plans? Escape

3. Goal: See above =^_^=

4. Dislikes about tomorrow: Too many to list

5. Work? No

________Currently_________
1. In love with someone? *grinds teeth*

2. Missing someone: O.o I'm not actually. It's this song... you can't miss someone with this song on. Jooooy to the world. Aaaaall the boys and girls! Joy to the fishes and the deep blue sea, joy to you and me!

3. Mood: Happy until this song finishes... nope happy after that, Bohemian Rhapsodys on next >=D

This Is Why You Don't Ask Maru Youkai For Her Favourite A.F.I Song

Omg! I can't believe I didn't put this on earlier!!


Ahh this is soo hard... what an evil question... okay right now I'm in love with The Leaving Song Pt II :heart: :heart: :heart: And I had a ...But home is nowhere (demo version) craze as well... but here are some others I love, in no particular order...

Smile, Dancing through sunday, Paper airplanes (makeshift wings), Of greetings and goodbyes, This secret ninja (first ever afi song I heard!! *huggles it*) God called in sick today, He who laughs last..., The prayer position, The lost souls... haha thats just a few ^_^ Oh, and I like Advances in modern technology too... Oh! And the killing lights, the missing frame and Affliction ^__^
Yeah, that's why you never ask that question...

Ahh! How could I forget?? The nephilim! And Keeping out of direct sunlight (an introduction) and Bleed black!! *le gasp!* And Death of seasons!!! Catch a hot one, Days of the pheonix, Synthesia, The boy who who destroyed the world... man I think I just named a whole album O.o wouldn't be surprised. Oh my god! THE CHICKEN SONG!! :heart:

Ah shit... there's also Winter's tale, At a glance, Wester, Ever and a Day, oh yes, Charles atlas "When you change your channel, we'll smash ya tv!" Look! You've unleashed a monster!! This list is neverending. Oh, Kill Caustic and 37mm too. Oh! Ny-Quil!! :sweat: Yes, I'll stop now...
Ha... Yes I know I promised to stop, but it's only one more, and I'm lacking favourites from this album (Very Proud Of Ya)... it's Perfect Fit ^_^
:sweat: :sweat: Ah... yes... maybe I'm not... because I also love Cult Status and Aspirin Free :oops: Ok I SWEAR I'll let this drop now...

That's copied straight from gaia so ignore anything like :oops: kay?